Hell Mouth

I am interested in Latin culture.  There are many authors in Latin America that are translated into English.  Most famous of all were Castaneda and Ruiz.  There is western yoga like there is Eastern yoga.  Aztec Yoga is all about Sex and the Sacred.

Lust is not the most evil thing in life.  On the contrary, it is the best.  Love and Lust are two things, but you need both to be a good human being.  The light is love, and the flesh is lust.  So love is an emotion, and sex is just gratification of the body.

But as long as we are alive, we need to balance between love and lust.  You have a body, so you need to eat and sleep and bathe and all that.  And we have a spirit so we need love and emotions and wisdom and knowledge.

God is Love, and the Devil is Lust.  But don't pretend like you are not lusty.  We are animals.  Life begins at the root chakra with food, sex, and aggression.  And as you go up the spine, it ends with the crown chakra and enlightenment and Oneness.  So kundalini yoga is the real self realization.  It is becoming your full potential.

So when I see porn, I don't feel ashamed.  Every woman has sex for money.  By 15 or 16, women realize that their vagina is a commodity.  A woman can get something with her sexuality.  Nobody pays men for sex.  Even male strippers are just pretty boys doing a fantasy business.  So women have more value than men.

The aesthetics of porn is all about what we secretly value.  The main thing, no kidding, is the penis next to the woman's face.  These two things are the most beautiful things in the world.  And the ejaculation is called, 'the moneyshot' because that is what people pay to see.  The most ridiculous moneyshot is in the woman's mouth.

So sex is just about lust and expression of rage.  We are animals who think.  First thing is self defense, eating, and fucking.  If you can't do anything else, just sit around at home cooking and eating.  The root chakra is the animal part of the human being, but a human being can go beyond the animal kingdom.  That is why any human birth is fortunate.  We are better than dogs or monkeys or whatever.

I find the Latinas and Asians the most interesting.  Latin women are great at sex and very lusty.  Asian women are submissive and servile.  I am not a big fan of white and black and all that.

This post is not about porn or lust.  It is about what we see in porn.  There is an aesthetic to it.  And between porn and art is erotica.  Erotica is art about lust and sex.  

What I am trying to say is, lust is a part of life and you have to accept you are part beast before you move on to the higher realms.

Relations

There is a teaching in Voodoo that souls reincarnate around the same souls over and over again in different paradigms.  Your father might die, and be reincarnated as your grandson.  The soul of a man never dies.  The soul is immortal, the body is transient.

So your family is important.  It is not just your culture or racial identity.  You feel an afinity for your people.  And when you create new relationships, you create connections.  Souls know each other through affinity.

I feel I had a good life although I didn't accomplish much.  I spent a lot of time in isolation.  But I never feel alone.  I think the first thing you should work on is enlightenment.  Worldly things don't interest me.  You can learn by doing or you can learn to like the spirituality.  Most of all, I like music and philosophy and also grappling.  I have a lot of life experience.

My real family never left me.  There is a belief in yoga that when you think about someone you reach them somehow.  When you think of someone, you tune into their frequency.  A person is like a radio station.  And modern technology is almost useless.

So I am glad I know my real family and not my evil family that ruined my life.  I wasted more than two decades.  I am like Rumpelstiltzken waking up in a distant generation with nothing to show for it.  Google Rumpelstiltzken.  I survived a lot.

So I know that I will be just fine.  There is a belief in Kaballah that a person should balance between thinking the whole world is for him and the other extreme that the he is insignificant.  Both are equally true.  Because all we know is subjectivity.  Only God knows reality.  So when I hear Bob Dylan lyrics, I hear myself, because it is like a Rorshach test.  He was inspired by the Muse, and the Muse means the Akashic Record.  

So the world is for you, and every person is a hero of their own story.  I just happened to be very talented.  But there are plenty of talented people out there.  

It turns out the Chinese and the Hebrews are very similar people.  In Tao, they speak of the Three Pure Ones.  And in Jewish mythology, they speak of Enoch the Wise, Elijah the Prophet, and the rebirth of Melchizedek.  So the Jews have a prophecy similar to the Taoists.  The Chinese are on the continent of Asia similar to the Jews.  Jewish people are neither European nor African.  

I am glad I left my mother's home and I am on my own.  I don't feel in prison anymore.  I can live a simple life and be happy.  When I go out, I see some as good and some as bad.  Good people radiate the late and bad people don't shine.  Good people are pure and wholesome and bad people seem dark even up close.

So I pity this generation.  The Millenials are not that good.  They have it easier and they can make money and know technology but I am of the belief that each generation gets worse not better.  So we will wait and see what the future brings.  I am content to live my life.  

Changes

You will find that you cannot outdo your genetics.  You often resemble your parents and have some of their characteristics.  That is why people are proud of their heritage, it defines their identity.  Racial characteristics are very real, and that is why people in America are sensitive about race and gender.  They think they are this and you are that and so we area different.  But this is an artificial distinction.  Race and Gender can change within one's lifetime let alone within many.

I have qualities of my mother and father.  I wasn't raised by my birth parents.  I knew I was different from the people who raised me and different from the people I went to high school and college with.

Overall, I am a Portuguese Jew.  My father is a Latino and my mother is a kind of Jewess.  I also have Native American heritage in me.  I am not a Caucasian and I am not an eastern European Jew.  

I am entering the last phase of my life.  By 40 or so, you are middle aged.  Most people live only 80 or so years, so 40 is mid way through life.  A good Hindu sees that there are four phases of life, and by the third or fourth you should be preparing for the end.

The ideal life is where you start in nutrition and health, then get a career skill, work, retire, and spend your last days meditating on the meaning of life.  To die with contentment is victory.  Yoga is a heroic religion where you win salvation.  It is the real Christianity.

So in my 40 or so years, I went through a lot of changes.  By the time I was a young man, I was a zen immortal, a hunchback, and a musician.  And now in my middle age, that is all I am.  Life comes full circle.  You end up where you started.  The things you do and experience during your lifetime don't really amount to anything, they are just experiences.  That is why rich people are stupid, they want to accumulate possessions when it is better to accumulate friendships and relationships.  They are worth more.

I want to enjoy my time and play more guitar.  Music makes me happy and my music is a combination of music and poetry.  The chords are music and the lyrics are poetry.  It is fun to write a new song.  When I write a new song, I write the chord progression first and then I add the lyrics.  My last song was Song of the Maccabbe which is about the spirit warrior of Jewish mythology.  It is my swan song.  

This world is worthless and you can only grab so much joy from it.  There is a process of life in that you are born in waking up, you go through changes, the sun sets, you enter the nighttime of beings, and then you fall asleep in death.  Your dreams are your mind in the bardo and you are reborn the next day.  So all men and women identify with Osiris the Sun God.  That is where religion comes from.  It started with Osiris, then the Jews innovated the Law, and then Christians synthesized it with Jesus, which is a kind of Jewish Osiris or Dionysus.  Hindus know religion is a kind of mythology from the subconscious and are not stupid. 

I don't mind dying.  I have nothing left to live for.  Music makes dying easy, it is the sound of emotions.  So the best thing I ever did was learn to play guitar.  I have been playing for 25 years which is a quarter of a century, and I feel my music is better than the music of the past 20 years.  I liked Kurt Cobain and felt he let down a generation.  

So I am content.  I am living in a different town now and I like it.  New York City is an important part of the world and Long Island is its suburban neighborhood.  The real estate is expensive for a reason, it is desirable.  Many people live here and work in the city.  And when I drive on the highway during rush hour, I feel bad for the working stiffs who need to spend an extra hour each way sitting in traffic.  The life of a worker seems unnecessary.  It is better to stay local, be less ambitious, and spend less money.  It is possible to live a better life with less money.  Money isn't everything.

So I am learning to like technology less.  I have a couple of acoustic guitars, a notepad, and a drawing pad.  Technology ruins everything.  You think it makes your life easier but it actually enables you.  In every stage of life, technology ruined humanity.  The Industrial revolution made us go from farm to factory.  The car is just a portable bed.  The guitar was the instrument the Twentieth century.  The telephone prevented us from leaving the house.  All new techonology is used for pornography.  And the computer and smartphone made us mindless masturbation addicts.  My life had of been better had I not become dependent on the smartphone and computer.  And driving prevented me from getting out there and meeting people.  

So when you help someone, you are actually belittling them, and when you teach them how to do it for themselves you are empowering them.  It is like that saying 'give a man a fish he eats for a day, teach him how to fish he eats for a lifetime.'

I have been through all the changes in my life and I learned all the lessons.  I can just enjoy the party til I'm done.

The West is in Decline

I am sad to see it go.  Even in my small narrow view of martial arts and music, I see the world is declining.  We are approaching judgement day.  I started guitar and grappling in the 90s and I see the world is not improving, it is degrading.

Physically, we are bigger and fluffier and faster than ever, but morally and spiritually, we are losing our edge.  Boxing is more classy than MMA.  Blues music is more classy than Porno.  This generation is addicted to Porno and MMA and it is ruining them.  It is not just entertainment.  One Greek philosopher said, 'A society can be judged by how it spends it's leisure time.'  This society is debased.

In an open market economy, you must be sneaky and learn the game quick.  In a situation where it is every man for himself, learn to survive.  By the age of 18, you are no longer a minor and can be kicked out of your parent's home to fend for yourself.  Grow up fast not slow.

The west is in decline and we are approaching Judgement Day.  I like showbusiness and feel I could have been somebody.  But I never served in the military or police, never was a famous musician or actor.  Things didn't turn out the way I thought they would.

I wrote about this in a previous post about how things went from Muhammed Ali to Mike Tyson and John Lennon to Kurt Cobain.  Even in 20 or 30 years things quickly degrade.  So the JudeoChristian worldview is accurate, every generation gets worse not better and you cannot be greater than your father.  You may be physically better, but you are morally more crapulent.

So I am heavy in heart and look forward to death.  I can enjoy my last few years on earth and be in peace.  I like music and poetry and zen and morality.  I also like the basic things like food and sex and self defense.  Those are basic things common to all humans. 

I am now working on a new album which I will have ready by Labor Day.  So I must do it all this month.  And I want to publish another book by the end of 2020.  My album will be called, 'Rhythm and Blues World Service' and the book will be called, 'Health, Strength, and Self Defense'.  My music is about preserving the old rhythm and blues and my books are about wholistic health and nutrition. 

So I am resigned in the face of death.  It doesn't matter to me.  There is no success.  If we are all mortal, then God is better than any man who ever lived.  And I think I am the best man.

So life is not perfect, but I must accept what is.  I endured a lot, experienced a lot, and feel better than ever.  I can't do self defense, but I can do combat and survival.  I can't get free sex, but I can go to the strippety strip.  And I play my own version of rock n roll and dream of things that could have been. 

When you are in high school, it is all about free sex and self defense and rock n roll.  And then you go to college and transition in to adult life.  And then you are in the real world, and the real world is all about money and women.  Money is worldly value and women love money. 

So I must fight the good fight til I'm done.

The Daily Grind

The meaning of life is found in the every day activities.  The mundane is the extraordinary.  Do not go looking for the fun in exotic places or the nightclub or the whorehouse.  If you are happy in your mind, you are happy, and the external circumstances do not matter.

I see this life as pointless.  I do not even like the world, but since I do not want to die, I simply must enjoy the here and now.  I know that when you are dead you are free from the constraints of physicality.  In our youth, we are strong and able and think it will last forever.  But in your late twenties, you peak, you explode, and by 30 you are already over the hill.  The happiest year of most people's lives is the age of 33, because at that age you realize lust and violence is not the best part of life.  Lust is joyous and violence is exciting but that is not real happiness.  The real meaning of life is desire or love.  You do what you love until you can no longer stand up.

I desire music and art and poetry.  I am very creative.  But nobody owes me free shit.  Get real.  The whole premise of society is I help you and you help me and we all win.  It is not beat everyone down, aggrandize yourself and then I am Cassius.  Muhammed Ali knew he was a jokey humble athlete who couldn't really fight.  But there was no gap between what he could say and what he could do.  So he was a sports hero.

This shit is ridiculous.  I simply want to enjoy the daily grind.  I am not results oriented.  The result of life is death.  I am not intent on dying a hero.  When you are dead, you are equally dead as Ghandi and Hitler and everything in between. 

I know I am the best man in the worst position, and all the people of the world are not happy and not spiritual.  I see the intangible and they see the tangible, so they have more stuff but I am more happy.  And the meaning of life is simply to be happy and useful.  You don't get a gold medal.

I like art and music and being creative.  Sexual energy and creative energy is the same thing.  You can sit around masturbating all day or you can do something.  Do not masturbate all day.  That is an epic waste. I know there are some masturbation addicts out there reading this blog.

I am content with my life.  I simply want to live a good life and die a contented death.  All the dreams of my youth were just vanity and daydreaming.  Boxing, porno, and music is just showbusiness.  I am not there anymore.  But now that I am middle aged, I can dedicate my time to things that matter.  I like art, I like Aikido, and I like nutrition.  My skill and knowledge of nutrtition is uncanny.  I am the Master.

I see art as my vocation, Aikido as my religion, and nutrition as my gift to humanity.  If you do not know the basic of nutrition by age 15, they are going to use you.  That is what my two books on Amazon are about.  Living a good lifestyle.  Every Hindu knows nutrition is the first thing you learn.  I think my books are great and contain a lot of knowledge condensed into a few pages. 

You can write the same themes over and over again in 300 pages or you can just say it simply and plainly.  My first book was 19 pages long and my second was 35 pages long.  I am happy I am a published author.  Writing about health and nutrition is like being a doctor without practicing acupuncture or massage or any kind of intervention.  That is just a business.

So the beat goes on and I am content.  I am working on monetizing what I do.  I want to get more graphic design jobs, publish books, and practice martial arts and conditioning.  I like Aikido now more than Judo or Sambo or the wrestlemania crackerjacks in the cage.  My life is rich and I am content.  Money is not the issue. 

Yesterday Don't Matter

You will find some day, that we cannot know the whole truth.  Man only understands right here and now.  God knows past, present, and future.  So it is right, what is written in the Book of Job.  God is greater than mortal man.

My music is the gospel blues.  I love music more than anything.  I have five albums available right now on YouTube and Spotify.  I try to sound like Chuck Berry, had he never invented rock n roll and stayed a bluesman.  My whole shtick is Chuck Berry playing the blues.

What he did was very clever.  He started performing at the age of 30 which is already old for a musician.  He quickly mastered the basic music theory of rhythm and blues and created a synthesis of Rosetta Tharpe's gospel music and T Bone Walker's jazz blues guitar.  He took this sound and wrote lyrics that appealed to the white mainstream audience.  In the 1950s, technology advanced and children did not have to spend their summers helping their fathers on the family farm.  They had free time and could work day jobs and make money and date and spend their hared earned money on anything they choose.  It's your money.

In this cultural mileu, Chuck Berry devised a strategy to appeal to the white audience who had more money than the black audience.  Rock n Roll is black people's music played to suit white people's tastes.  All the music of the 1950s, was about white and black musicians inspired by gospel music but writing secular songs for a secular audience.  Jerry Lee Lewis, Buddy Holly, Elvis, Fats Domino, Little Richard, Bo Diddley, etc... were all musicians influenced by gospel music but writing about secular subjects like money and women and sex and dating and cars and jobs and parties, etc...

Rock n Roll is by nature not evil music.  It is secular music.  There were good and bad musicians.  It is just music.  You can use it any way you like.  It is just a neutral tool.  What Jimi Hendrix was looking for at the end of his life, was a spiritual blues sound.  He got tired of just singing about love and relationships.  I admire Jimi Hendrix.  He had power and love and soul.  He was a free spirit.  He could fight if he had to, but he just wanted to have fun and have a party.  He had many lovers in his life.  But he died at the age of 27 choking on his own vomit.  Because rockstars live bad lives and die young.

I aim to continue Jimi's quest.  But I am not a secular person.  I am not religious either.  I don't self identify as any faith.  Religion divides people.  We are only one human race, and two genders.  Don't pervert reality.  The man gives and the woman receives.  That is the way it should be, nice and easy.

So I consider myself a spiritual blues musician.  My lyrics are neither work and women nor are they about God and Jesus.  I am simply a spiritual man writing about his own experiences and emotions.  I internalize experiences and turn them into songs.  Some of my best songs are about relationships I had that didn't work out. 

So ultimately, it is better to be secular than religious.  If you love and date and experience women, you enjoy lust and love and you experience breaks up and misery and heartaches.  But in the end, you gain wisdom and emotional intelligence.  So do it wrong or do it right, you win in the end.  I don't regret any experience I have had with women.  It's all good.  Like Shakespeare said, it is better to have loved and lost, then never to had loved. 

I will continue writing songs, even if music is not my main career.  I would do this for free, any extra money I get from music is icing on the cake.  Money is about survival.  Desire is about doing what you want to do before you are dead. 

Yesterday don't matter, because we can't understand a complete reality.  We are limited.  God is not limited.  He has all the power, and the devil's power is illusionary.  Money has no intrinsic value, and women are by nature evil.  They want your time and money not just your looks and charm and a fat cock.

So the real riddle is, the world is almost worthless, and a good Christian is waiting on Judgement Day and the hope of the resurrection.  I write rock n roll songs, but I am not a clever, shady businessman doing it for the money.  Chuck Berry did many immoral, criminal acts in his life.  I like his music, I don't like him.  But he is known to posterity as the man who invented rock n roll.  The whole genre is about a man writing a song on a guitar and hamming it up infront of an audience.  This is kids stuff.  But I don't want to grow up.

But now I realize, yesterday don't matter.  Kids don't listen to rock n roll anymore.  Money is very important in real life.  If you have no money, you don't survive.  I have no fear of not surviving.  I know I will survive.  But if I want a higher quality of life, I need to earn that money and watch it blow up.

So my teaching is that business is not about who is objectively better or more talented.  It is just warfare.  In war, there is no good guys and bad guys.  It is us vs them.  A good warrior understands if you fight fair, you most likely will lose.  If you fight dirty, and outsmart the opponent you might beat someone who is vastly superior to you.  So my message to the readers of this blog is.  Don't be the better man.  Just survive, learn how to play the game, and how to value peace above all things.

A warrior doesn't go looking for a fight.  He does the opposite.  He avoids all violence, and if you corner him and give him no other option to fight, he fights to the death.  That is what the warrior does. 

So my life is contrasted between grappling which is a kind martial art and music, which is all about love and peace and women and having a ball.  So I combine the very hard and the very soft.  And now that I am old and broken, I can't fight, so all i can do is work and make money and survive and write songs and sing of the glory of the past.

The Gospel

I know religion makes you less popular in this current cultural milieu, but frankly, I don't give a damn.

Christianity is not a mythology.  The bible is not just some book.  Yes, not all of it is historically accurate.  But it is not written by God.  God does not have a hand, a pen, a book, nor the desire to be known.  He doesn't write.  Men write.  The bible is inspired scripture, and there are even some scriptures not included in the official modern bible, including The Book of Enoch, which is probably the most important book in the world.

I am not saying become a devout Christian and leave the world.  Don't even convert to the Jehovah's Witness religion.  I am saying, both the bible and meditation can help you lead a better life with less suffering and more success.  Even a simple black dude who reads the bible and prays and puts the principles into action can succeed according to his talent.

The Hebrew Scriptures are not just mythology or folklore.  They contain myths, and poems, and wise sayings, and history, and law, and ethics, and dietary laws, and laws of hygiene.  The Jewish tradition is rich.  But it lacks something.  They don't talk about Judgement Day and the conclusion of this system of things.  If this system had a beginning, it will have an end too.  Every beginning has an end.  This is simple logic. 

The whole story of the bible can be summarized as Paradise Lost.  LIfe began in an Idyllic Paradise, and we acquired sin and fell.  The devil rules the world, and each subsequent generation gets worse not better.  So the only hope for the downtrodden and oppressed is Christianity.  I believe we are in the end times.  I cannot say exactly when it will end, but this is obviously the most crapulent generation ever.  The internet and smartphone ruined my life, and it ruined yours too.

There are more fake jobs, less social interaction, people get less exercise, they use dating sites to find girlfriends.  People are addicted to pornography.  Technology ruins everything, because it makes you dependent on the technology.  So when you are given something, you are enabled, and when you learn to do it for yourself, you gain strength.

I know how to draw by hand and how to play an acoustic guitar fingerstyle.  I have old school skills in a time when most people have no real skills.  The musicians these days have so much technical virtuousity and speed in their fingers, but they got no rhythm and soul.  So they produce crappy music.  Over 90% of modern musicians suck.  In art, if you don't learn to draw by hand first, you will not be a great artist.  Every great artist, up to Van Gogh learned art by drawing by hand first.  Van Gogh's drawings were phenomenal and I admire them.  He died penniless, and was only known to posterity.

So the Christian worldview is right.  When you look at the liberal media, all you see is veganism, and homosexuality, and transgender rights, and bashing white people and calling Donald Trump a loser.  But this is opposite.  The world is too liberal.  If you keep your integrity til Judgement Day, you will not be destroyed.  The main feature of a good person is integrity.  They refuse to do evil.  Some can't do exceptional works of goodness.  But as long as you don't harm the innocent, you will not be punished. 

I tie this in with my career as such.  I will continue doing art and music.  But I will infuse judeochristian concepts in my cartoons and songs.  There is Voodoo in art and there is a genre called the Gospel Blues.  So you can use creativity as a form of worship.  Most people don't do Christianity right.  They do Churchianity.  They show up to Church on Sunday in their finest clothing and they go through the motions and they socialize but they are not kind, forgiving, humble people.  So I don't need to go to Church.  I need the bible, prayer, meditation, diet and exercise, and above all, art and music.  When you create, you are using sexual energy to create something new. 

Don't sit around masturbating to Pornhub all day.  You will waste your life.  Moderate your ejaculations  Save some of that creative energy for art and music and poetry.  The Gospel is, good will win in the end.  The Israelite slaves will know freedom.  And the Masters of War will be crushed.

It turns out, the media is fake.  The best fighters are not in MMA.  The best lovers are not in Porno.  The best looking guys are not in Hollywood.  Those guys are gay drug users who rape children and worship the devil.  Boxing is a fair contest, but is not realistic self defense.  It is just entertainment.  When it comes down to it, the best musician are not in pop music.  They are in the church.  And they never get rich nor famous.  I am both a musician and I am quite handsome and athletic.  But I am neither rich nor famous.  Because there is no justice in this world.  Success is not based on who is fitter or better or has more talent.  It is based on guile and deception and stealth.  That is why Anglo Americans and Europeans are the richest people, because they understand military tactics, which is based on stealth.  You don't get more for being the better man, you get less.  There is no justice.

But in this conclusion of this system of things, there is hope in the resurrection.  I am becoming more Christian and realize it is the best faith for a reason.  All the concepts seem true.  But there is something beyond prayer and scriptures.  These are just the basic tools of religion.  But you go to start somewhere. 

So the gospel is, good will win in the end.  It only appears weak and slow and vulnerable.  But good men have no fear.  So I will sing my song and draw my picture and live in hope.  Meanwhile, I can enjoy earthly women and eat lacto ovo vegetarian food.  I might even eat some ceviche every now and then.  Life is good.  It could be a lot worse.

People should know there is nothing right about the world.  But if this evil world had a beginning, it will have an end to.  And that should be a comfort for good people.

The Birth of Rhythm and Blues

I have several ideas for books in my mind.  One of them I mentioned in this blog.  I am planning a cookbook called, 'Health, Strength, and Self Defense.'  I also am dreaming of a book on art any mythology called, 'The Osiris Myth in World Culture'.  But I think a lot about music and how the Beatles changed everything.

So I thought I'd chat about the birth of rhythm and blues.  It didn't start in the 1960s with The Beatles and The Rolling Stones and Jimi Hendrix.  All good musicians start out new, listen to a lot of music, and start to sound like their influences.  Being a great musician is all about who you sound like.  So one decade of music is based on the previous. 

I first like grunge rock in the 1990s. I was a teenager and thought those cats were cool.  I especially liked Nirvana.  Three guys from Seattle who were rockstars but didn't want to be rockstars.  It was a bit of a paradox.  When Kurt Cobain died, the music world was reeling.

After 1994, I got into the Beatles.  Their 30 year re-issue of their two greatest hits albums showed me what real music is.  These guys don't mess around.  Even their mainstream hits were genius, let alone their lesser known songs on their multiple albums.  The Beatles were special.  Each song featured 8 or 9 or 10 chords, and was not chinsy 3 chord pop music like all the music of the 50s and 60s.  These guys were good.

What I came to realize was, was that they didn't invent this shit either.  Their initial sound was four white boys from Liverpool with long hair playing black people's music.  So rock n roll does not come from Britain, they just took the ball and ran with it.

Rock n Roll is black music.  It started in the 1950s with Muddy Waters who discovered Chuck Berry.  These were the two great innovators.  Without Muddy, we would be defunct.  He was the first bluesman from Mississippi to go from the south to the north and from acoustic to electric.  I dig his music.  Visually, he looks like a jokey man, but he as soul and pinnache and can do so much with three chords.  His songwriting capacity is mind boggling. 

Muddy Waters discovered Chuck Berry in 1955 and that was when Maybellene was released.  That was Chuck Berry's first hit and the beginning of his career.  He was already past 30 at the time, so he was a middle aged man singing songs for a teenage audience.  It was a bit pretentious, but nobody seemed to mind.

I like Chuck Berry's music the best.  He was the axis mundi of rock n roll.  It went from Robert Johnson to Muddy Waters to Chuck Berry to everybody else.  His music was profound.  Although it only featured three chords per song, he could innovate on his sound every time he wrote a song and keep it fresh.  He wrote intelligent lyrics that appealed to a mainstream audience.  15 and 16 year old children starting out on working and dating could spend some of their hard earned money on his albums.  This was a great time for America.

Obviously, the era of rock n roll was short lived. I would say, from 1955 to the end of the 1970s was the heyday of rock n roll.  By the end of the Vietnam War, rock n roll was dying, the ghetto scene began, the war on drugs began, and black soldiers came back from the Army addicted to drugs with no relevant job skills.  The past 40 years has been a washout.  Each year, America degrades not improves.  Europe, Israel, and Asia has taken leaps and bounds beyond America.  America is no longer leader of the free world.

But at least when I listen to Chuck Berry or John Lee Hooker or Muddy Waters or Elmore James, I can hear the music of the climax.  The black rhythm and blues musicians led to the anglo rock n roll musicians.  Eric Clapton is extremely talented and is now an elderly man.  He is the hero of everybody who likes blues and rock.

So it didn't just start in one place and explode.  Each decade builds on the previous one.  Chuck Berry and his sound was largely based on Rosetta Tharpe and her overall sound and the guitar playing of T Bone Walker.  Great musicians innovate.  They take old things and recombine them and add something new.  I don't just listen to black dudes playing guitar.  I also like Bob Dylan, The Beatles, Jimi Hendrix, CCR, and The Doors.  By now, most of these guys are elderly or deceased.  But those were the days.

Today's music aint got the same soul.  It is all about looks and not talent.  The personality, reputation, and stage presence of the musician is more important than how good they actually are.  I don't think Kanye West knows the difference between a D Major and a D Minor chord.  And Taylor Swift's guitar is essentially a prop.  But they are rich and I am poor so I tap out.

I started guitar right when music was dying.  I don't like most of the music of the past two decades.  I think it is more commercial and has nothing to do with the music and poetry of oppressed people.  Most of the delta bluesmen never got rich or famous, and they invented something of benefit to society.  So it reconfirms the JudeoChristian worldview.  Suffering is Grace.  Even the famous bluesmen like Howlin Wolf and Elmore James are just a minority of the guys who where out there at the time.  Most of them didn't become famous names.

So the birth of Rhythm and Blues is a uniquely American story.  It has to do with white people playing black people's music.  In the 1960s, people were brought together through music.  This was the golden era.  These are dark times. 

So as a middle aged man in the year 2020, I don't have to listen to Nirvana or the Beatles.  I got over that.  I go straight to the source, to black men playing guitars in the 1950s.  I often listen to Lightnin Hopkins, Elmore James, Howlin Wolf, Muddy Waters, and my favorite, Mr. Chuck Berry.  The way a black man plays guitar, it is like he is choking the instrument to death.

So I like blues and rock and I will keep listening to it even if I am no longer relevant. 

No Particular Place To Go

In life, there is nothing to accomplish.  More is not more.  Less is more.  When you have the bare minimum, you have enough.  Less than the bare minimum is dying.  But more than the bare minimum is excess.  Excess is not good.  Moderation destroys all sorrow.

People get addicted to all kinds of things.  Some drugs are legal, some are not.  Sugar is actually the worst, most addictive, and most destructive drug there is.  But they put it in every item in the grocery store.  Once you are addicted to Coca Cola or Cheetos or Frappucino, you are hooked for life.  Sugar has caused more death than tobacco, alcohol, heroin, cocaine, etc.. combined.  Some drugs are legal, some are illegal.  Addiction is a matter of health and not morality or crime or sin.  These are all false concepts.

I've met people addicted to sex, to marijuana, to gambling, to alcohol, to cigarettes, and obviously, to sugar.  I myself love sex.  I see nothing wrong with any form of sex for money.  It is in the bible.  There are good and bad prostitutes.  Prostitution is everywhere.  It might be lurking next door.  Sex addiction is an addiction.  Of all the addictions, I think gambling is the worst.  In gambling, you throw away your money in hopes of getting more money.  But it is just an illusion.  Gamblers always lose.  The house always wins.  I think sex addiction is the most innocent addiction.  But that is just me.  It seems like sex for money is America's biggest business, not a problem.  It's business as usual.

This post is called No Particular Place To Go after a Chuck Berry song.  It one of his classics.  He invented the genre known as rock n roll.  The music of youth and rebellion.  The actual song is a story of  a man and his girlfriend driving around with no destination in mind.  It is cute and ironic and ends with a twist.  Chuck Berry was a songwriting genius.  There were other great musicians out there.  But he was special.

In my life, I have no particular place to go.  I have no ambition or goal in mind.  I simply want to live and die in peace.  I enjoy music and food and sex and I exercise if I have to.  I tend to be lazy.  But that's just me.

So far, I have produced 6 albums and 2 books.  One album came off the market.  Some music platforms are better than others.  Some are a rip off, some are sleazy businesses, some are good business paradigms where both parties benefit.  A good businessman believes in mutual welfare and beenfit.  He is not interested in making a short term killing and making off with the loot.  That is sin.  That is crime.

The whole premise of society is the economy.  If you do the right thing, work with enthusiasm, and get good results, you will be succesful.  It is all karma.  Do good and get good.  Do wrong and get punished. 

So the beat goes on, and I continue making music.  I want music to be my career.  Life is too short to do something boring and useless just to make a paycheck.  I am going to die just like you are going to die.  Only God doesn't die.  Camp Undefeated.  So if my time is short, I want to have money and fun at the same time.  Music is the best career ever.

The distance between rich and famous and unknown starving artist is shrinking.  There are more full time muscians making between 30,000 and 40,000 per year than ever.  But they have advanced marketing savvy.  My talent is extraordinary.  But my business savvy is intermediate.  So I must learn how to market and reach a bigger audience.  1000 streams gets you 7 dollars on Spotify.  That is pesos.  That means you need 1 million streams to make 7000 dollars.  So every musician needs a huge following to make real money. 

Taylor Swift knew Spotify would ruin the music industry.  But nobody listened.  So music fans get it for free, and professional musicians have to hustle.  I know I am a good musician.  I am not exactly Beyonce or Kanye West but I got my own skills.  I play acoustic blues and flamenco.  I am sure there is someone out there who digs it.  I could be a full time musician.  Dollar and a dream.

So I have no ambition, but I do have something in mind.  I have a goal.  I don't want to use my college degrees and trade time for money.  My hours are worth more than 15 dollars, or even 100 dollars.  I just want to live and die in peace and live on a budget.  I also want to find a latina who is good looking and humble but not rich and haughty.  I want to make about a part time income from music.  In this part of the world, that is between 500 and 1000 per month.  If I learn marketing, I can increase streams, downloads, and views.  And then I can branch out into other forms of music.  Like gigging out, teaching guitar, making music-related art, and also syncing and licensing.  It turns out, streams and downloads is the worst way to make money with music.  But right now, that is my only income stream from music.  So I am not rich.  But somebody likes it out there.  So what I must do, is target my niche audience, learn to how to advertise to them, create relationships with the customer, and above all, keep churning out good quality content.  If the content is not good, you have nothing.  But you don't have to have master skill to be rich.  All you need is intermedate skill and advanced business savvy.  Business is more important than talent.  Get real.

So I have hope for the future.  I have other things besides music, but that is what I find most joy in.  And my college degrees did not help me that much.  College is a scam.  All a degree is, is qualification to apply to a job.  It doesn't mean you know the job, can do it well, or even know you are talking about.  In reality, you learn by doing.  Experience is the best teacher.  It takes 20 years to master a skill.  But these days, people with ten of fifteen years experience are teaching.  Don't worship false gurus.  It takes a generation.  I have mastered more than just music and martial arts.  But I want to do music.  I feel it is my last chance.  So I really have somewhere to go.  I have a goal in mind.

Through music, you can rebel and spread ideas and lead people without inciting violence and hatred and bias and scorn.  John Lee Hooker sang a song called, 'The Healer'.  In it, he sings, 'the blues is a healer, it healed me, it can heal you!'.  He was a simple black man who understood music has more value than just entertainment and getting groupies.  It is part of politics, religion, education, culture, medicine, besides other things.  So I am a disciple of John Lee.  I need more than one chord to write a song.  But I am pretty good too. 

So I know my desire and I have a goal to work towards.  All great musicians overcome great odds and limitations to become legendary performers.  Music is better than boxing.  In music, nobody gets knocked out.  In boxing, there are winners and losers.  In music, everyone wins.  And that is nice. 

Look out for my next album which will be ready by the end of this summer.  I will use Routenote to publish it.  It's going to be a good album.  The money doesn't matter, I am building momentum towards the payday.  And that is what I want.  The big old payday.

Peace.

It's Raining Cats and Dogs

It is fair to analogize that men are like dogs and women are like cats.  The counter-intuitive thing is always true.

Dogs are lovers, peaceful, gentle, and strong.  They are guardians.  They only fight if they have to, to defend their territory or protect their family.  A good man is like a dog.

Cats are by nature warlike.  They fight everyone, feel less emotion, hunt, kill, eat only meat, and spend a lot of time grooming and sleeping.  Cats are warriors.  If you move towards them, they run away, because most good warriors avoid violence unless they have no choice but to defend themselves.

The counter-intuitive thing is always true.  Cats are better fighters than Dogs pound for pound, but dogs are so big that cats seem like a joke in comparison.  But a 50 pound minx can eat a 50 pound pit bull.  Dogs are not a warlike species.  They are guardians, they are primarily designed for protection and living in a group.

God is love.  Dogs are better than Cats.  Dogs were the first domesticated animal, and cats were the last.  So Cats are the most wild.  They are the closest thing to nature in the modern world. 

Men should be like dogs.  Women can't help but be like cats.  They have power.  They don't actually fight with their fists, but they compete in nonviolent ways.  Women compete through appearance, through the status of their boyfriends, through money, through their job, and in other ways.  Women don't dress up to attract men, they dress up to compete with other women.

Women are losers.  But we need them.  In all manners, women are more barbaric than men.  Men are more obvious, they punch you in the face or they tell you fuck you.  But that is kid's stuff.  Women control sex and choose the man.  So we are all just competing for women.

Love is the best feeling in the world.  There is no true love, but there are good relationships and terrible relationships.  The woman chooses the man.  Porno and strippers is just an illusion, where the man chooses the woman and uses her like a lump of meat.

Dating is nothing like porno, sexchat, and strippers.  That is why I haven't dated much.  I can't beat women.  I don't understand their psychology.  Good lovers know how to manipulate women and win the war of the sexes. 

So if I want to learn how to date, I must learn female psychology.  These girls aint loyal.  I am tired of evil sex.  I am ready for a real relationship.  The fulfillment of life is the ideal marriage.  Not perfect, but ideal.  You will never find anything perfect. 

This blog post was an analogy and a study in duality.  I am trying to understand things.  I don't know why I post to this blog, I get nothing from it.  But at least people who read this blog get some education in morality and moral reasoning. 

If I was smart, I would promote my music and books and shut up.  But I am not smart.  I just want to have a ball.

I Come Electric

Today I started work on my next album.  I decided it will be all electric, including rhythm and lead.  It will be called, "Rhythm and Blues World Service" and feature a couple of classic covers. 

I am more a fan of acoustic music, but I am running out of ideas.  Most of my acoustic songs are in the Key of E, A, or C.  I don't often play in Open G or Open D because that sounds too old fashioned.  The standard tuning of a guitar has the most versatility.

It is easier to sound good electric than acoustic, that is why most people prefer electric.  But I prefer acoustic.  This album will be exploring something new, and I will eventually go back to acoustic guitar. 

When Bob Dylan went electric in the late 1960s, some people accused him of selling out.  But he was just going with the times and exploring different things, he was still a folk rock musician.  I dig Bob Dylan.

My album will probably feature 7 songs or so.  At least 2 of them will be covers, and there will be a few instrumentals.  But most of all, I enjoy writing my own songs.  It is when you push past the three major chords and add something extra that you create something unique. 

So this new album will be lively and original.  I am hoping to create something as good as Lonely Days.  All of my albums are available on Spotify and YouTube.  You just have to look for Lior Avni in the search bar.

Meanwhile, I continue to write and plan a book for release by the end of 2020.  It is harder to write a book than an album.  Books are not easy to produce, but cost almost nothing to produce, so anything you make is profit. 

So I continue to work as a musician and author, and I supplement my income with side jobs.  Life is not that bad.  It is when you stop learning new things that you die inwardly.  You can study all your life and know a fraction of what God knows.  So keep studying.  And that doesn't mean high school or college.

That means the bookstore, the library, Udemy, and Skillshare.  Even Adobe produces free video tutorials.  So you don't need a college degree to be smart.

Knowledge is power, not power is power.  Donald Trump has no real power.  It is by learning about fact not fantasy that you acquire power.  And when you are powerful, you are more joyous.

So I will continue to explore new sounds, new ideas, new exercises, new foods, and new women.  What is life if you don't enjoy it?  If you lived your life without enthusiasm, you missed the point.  When you do the right thing with enthusiasm do you get good results and a good reputation. 

So keep on keepin on.

The Beat Goes On

I am trying to concentrate on music now.  I have two books online on Amazon, but they are not selling well.  And it is harder to write a book than to write a song or an album of songs.  Music is fun.

In addition to judo and cooking, I play guitar most days, and I find it very necessary.  The music is soothing and joyous and sounds like a woman's voice.  Reversal is the movement of the Tao.  If I keep mastering music this way, it may pay off someday.

Obviously, I must grapple again.  You don't train as an athlete for 20 years and suddenly stop and do something else.  One Judo coach said, 'Judo is a lifelong pursuit.' 

But I don't want to be pigeonholed into one thing and one thing only.  I want to expand into music and nutrition.  You're supposed to do judo in your youth and that empowers you to do other things in life.  Many police officers start as collegiate wrestlers, join the military, come back, join the police, and do judo to keep their wrestling skills sharp throughout life.

I never served in the police or military.  I just took a lot of meds and slept til noon.  But that is not the case anymore.  I wake up early every day and I get a lot done.  The money is not the issue.  I am productive.

So the beat goes on and I keep doing what i want to do.  But Benjamin Franklin once said, 'If you would be happy, do what you should not what you want.'  He was wise.  I must do judo or I won't accomplish anything in life.  I can't just have a ball all my life.  Music and Food are things for the home.  But to really succeed, you must leave the home and do something with your life. 

Look at it as a good fight. It is duty, you must do it.  I must literally wrestle with grown men, you must do your dayjob.  But it's all good.  Everything in life is just one big fight.  But you don't have to be an asshole.  Be a gentle warrior.  Peace.

A Deep and Far Reaching Post

The world is not the way it should be.  People have realized that the Christian church has lied to them for two millennia, and they have abandoned religion.  There is nothing right about the world.  The very word 'spirituality' is the antithesis of the word 'materialism'.  You can be in the spirit or in the body.  As a human being, you need both a spirit and a body, and the mind is in-between the two.

Christianity is a fraud.  Jesus won't come out of the sky to resurrect corpses on Judgement Day.  The whole concept of Judgement Day comes from Jewish theology, but the Christian fathers distorted the idea and took the Jewish Scriptures too literally.  There will never be one finite day when Jesus comes out of the sky and corpses come out of the ground to live in Paradise again.

What Kabbalists, Sufis, Mystics, and Taoist Masters know is, there is a kind of spiritual evolution as well as a physical evolution.  Lifetime after lifetime, your soul grows wiser as you learn your lessons.  A soul is by nature immortal, and you get more than one lifetime to live and learn.  If that wasn't the case, God would be cruel and I don't believe in a cruel God.

There are only three real religions.  The old religion of paganism, the new religion of Judaism, and the promise of Christianity.  Then there is nature religion like Tao, which is not religion at all but observing what works in nature.  Paganism has been disproven.  Even the greatest yogic master is still just a smelly guy who eats curry and meditates all day.  We are not supposed to be nonviolent, vegan, and hypersexual.  A man should know self defense, eat meat, and marry a woman.  Of course, a normal man wants to avoid violence, is moderate in food, and lusts for his woman every night.

Judaism is the best religion.  I don't care if it makes me unpopular to say this.  I am not an observant Jew, but I have a Jewish education, and I am thankful for it.  I took the ball and ran with it.  Jews are extremely intelligent, and speak in simple words.  They can observe obvious reality.  They have nothing to hide, the truth doesn't hurt their feelings.

Wrestling is the best martial art.  Judaism is the best religion.  Sugar restriction is the only real way for an obese person to lose the weight.  Man was meant to live in a semi tropical environment and eat a mixed diet. 

The truth should not hurt your feelings.  If it does, it shows you are living a lie. 

I have gone beyond what my parents taught me and experienced things for myself.  My most important education was in TCM, or Traditional Chinese Medicine.  TCM is based on Taoist philosophy, and this philosophy brings me great peace and consolation.  Taoist philosophy is simple.  It is based on the idea that all of Creation exists in duality, of masculine and feminine forces, and only the Creator is beyond duality.  So no one is pure good or pure evil.  And no one is pure male or pure female.  It is even proven scientifically that each embryo begins with the X chromosome alone, so we all start out female.  That means even Mike Tyson started out a female.  And he can knock you out in the first round.  If at some point you acquire the Y chromosome, you are born male, and have testicles and can produce semen.  In sex, the man gives and the woman receives.  This is the way it should be, nice and easy.

As an aside, the average man on the street has one Y chromosome.  The average guy in prison has two Y chromosomes  So they are dominant males.  They are extremely aggressive, violent, crude, competitive, and don't observe society's rules.  A man born with three Y chromosomes is an auspicious birth.

Another concept of Taoism is virtue.  That word means power or character or the good qualities of a human being.  One is born with a certain virtue, and one can develop it too.  The three main virtues stressed in Taoist thought are humility, compassion, and simplicity.  But I won't go too far into it in this post.

Another concept of Taoism is Wu Wei Wu, or Doing Not Doing.  It does not mean passivity or inaction.  It means being spontaneous, and acting in according with your own inner nature.  Sometimes doing nothing is best, and sometimes, punching people in the face is best.  Whatever the situation calls for. 

Taoism is a rich tradition and is not Judaism, Christianity, nor is it Hinduism or any derivative of polytheism.  This is indeed a deep and far reaching post.  In these trying times, don't abandon religion.  You should abandon Christianity, Nietzsche told you this 150 years ago, but don't throw the baby out with the bath water.  There are other mystical systems to explore.  And don't self identify as this religion or that religion.  Learn from others, examine yourself, and figure things out for yourself.  I am most inspired by the Tao Te Ching and the Baghavad Gita.  The main book of Taoism and the main book of Yogic philosophy. 

Ultimately, I am not religious.  I am just someone who lives a certain lifestyle of bliss and enlightenment.  So I am better than the Rabbi who lives off of donations or the Catholic priest who rapes your children.  I am a spiritual master, and yet, I have no disciples.  Because I don't advertise nor do I want to.   Jewish people pass down spiritual secrets to their offspring the way Chinese people pass down secret Kung Fu techniques to their offspring.  I have no one to pass down anything to. 

Moving forward, I want to continue producing music.  I want to write more insightful lyrics about these deep concepts.  But it's hard to write any song, let alone about shamanism and Tao and spirituality.  And then you got to make it rhyme and be marketable.  Songwriting is not easy, that is why original musicians get famous.  They have merit.

I am not even interested in working an an acupuncture clinic or graphic design office.  I want to be a musician and author and keep producing stuff for the world.  If I was smart, I'd learn the marketing aspect of business not just the actual craft of what I am doing.  Talent is useless.

So this is a deep and far reaching post.  I am not a Christian or Hindu, and although my seed is Jewish, I practice a kind of Taoist lifestyle.  But I know God is greater than mortal man.  Nobody is 'the master'.  In spirituality, one learns to be humble and gracious.  The ultimate teaching is God is Love, and in loving one another, you make the world a better place.

Giving up on Society

I've decided to give up on society.  I have also decided to give up on this blog.  Why should I give away such scholastic knowledge for free?  I might as well save it up for a book and profit from it, not post my thoughts to the internet.  My thoughts are valuable, I am an enlightened thinker.

Music is my favorite thing in the world, but I doubt I can make a living doing it.  Had I lived in the 1960s, I would have been a rockstar.  But this generation is about porno and MMA not rock n roll music.  I'm a bit late.

Two things I could keep doing is practicing and teaching judo and writing books.  I have two books online on Amazon, and I am in great shape for a 41 year old.  In my prime, between 26 and 30, I was very active in judo and sambo.  It culminated in sambo at the age of 30.

So I am not just a musician.  I am also an author and jacket wrestler.  Aristotle once said, 'where your talents, and the needs of the world intersect, there lies your vocation.'  He was pretty spot on about that one.

If I could, I'd play guitar and sing all day, and ultimately, I'd get nowhere.  I don't want to waste my life.  I need to get more results driven.  Judo can get me some results, and writing can get me some results.

I enjoy writing about many different topics, but I find nutrition writing is most attractive to others.  Everybody loves to gab about nutrition and then go eat a hamburger.  The real lesson of nutrition is, do a little bit every day.  Your diet means your lifestyle, and each morsel of food you eat brings up up or down the health ladder.  It is by being consistent that you get results.  And it takes a lot of patience.

So I must do what I must do.  Every day, I will find time for music, because it soothes my soul.  But I also must be successful and leave something to posterity.  So I will keep writing nutrition books and practicing/teaching judo.  Life is a balancing act. 

I'm not really giving up on society, I am just giving up on Hollywood dreams of being famous and rich.  That will never happen, so I am just letting it go.  Just get over fantasyland.

Basic Human Civility

I don't see capitalism as basic human civility.  Capitalism doesn't work, and it makes you more a slave than communism does.  Neither Capitalism nor Communism really work, and the whole history of the twentieth century where two hard, strong imperialistic forces, USA and Russia, pitted against each other over political idealogies invented by secular Jews.

Don't blame the Jews.  There is a big difference between secular Jews and religious Jews.  Karl Marx was a Russian Jew who dreamed of Utopia where people were all equally poor, the government had no special power, and people got everything from the state.   But that is not realistic.  In any society, the hard, shrewd, cunning men will predate on the weaker minded, more simple and humble men.  It is just like jail or prison.  In a free for all, weak men don't survive.

Capitalism is equally wrong.  Capitalism lasted longer because it appeals to lowest common denominator, to man's greed and self interest.  But Capitalism ruined everything and America is the laughing stock of Europe, Israel, and Asia.  Life in society is not about survival of the fittest.  It is not a fair society to begin with.  If you are born to upright parents who are wealthy and educated, then most likely you will end up wealthy and educated.  Rich parents can send rich children to rich schools which gets them rich jobs.

If you have the misfortune of being born poor, you will most likely not go to college, get in a lot of fistfights in school, impregnate your high school girlfriend, and get mixed up in drugs.  The rich get richer and the poor get poorer.  Whether you are born rich or poor is a matter of luck and fortune not the strength of your genome.  Americans generally don't believe in reincarnation, brahmanism, nor a caste system.  Hinduism is not the true religion.

Europe is Socialist and that is basic human civility.  The theory of socialism is very simple.  If you want the bare minimum for free, we will give it to you, but if you want more than the bare minimum, then you must work for it, and we will tax everything you make.  There are millionares in Europe who make 2 million dollars per year but pay 50% of their income as tax.  So they are still millionares even though they are paying half their salary as tax.  And since medicine and education is on the government, they don't really have many expenses.  Britain, France, and Germany is the real leader of the free world and the USA is a joke.  The Russians are extremely hard, militaristic people who despise the Jews and aren't ashamed of it.  The Russians and the Americans are very similar people.

Both are hard, militaristic, into business and warfare, but they do it differently.  The Russians are more blatant and straightforward, the Americans are more sneaky.  Everything in America is a business, and you can buy anything you want.  You can buy sex, food, medicine, education, freedom, dignity, safety, fame, you name it.

I do not want to live in the USA or in Russia.  The only reason they became super powers is because they are hard military men who fight for resources.  Both the American midwest and the Ukraine is fertile land that produces a lot of grain and other natural resources.  The best commodities are oil, silver, gold, pork bellies, oranges, etc...

I wish I could move to Israel and live in peace.  Israel is the safe place for the Jews, and Jews know what it is like to be an outcast.  They are more tolerant towards blacks, gypsies, homosexuals, transgenders, and every other type of oppressed minority.   They've learned their lesson from the holocaust.  Pride is the worst sin, and Aryan supremacy is just a myth.

Judaism is obviously the best religion.  It is about strict monotheism and the concept of divine justice.  God created the world, but the devil rules the world until he is defeated on judgement day.  So we must endure until the end.  Suffering is grace, and being an outcast of an evil society is actually a blessing in disguise.  The best people are poor, humble, and simple.  I've met my share of poor, humble, and simple people.  I'm a good Jew.

So Capitalism is not even basic human civility, and Americans don't practice real Christianity.  Real Christianity is about a certain group of Jews who believed Jesus was the Messiah who could ressurect the dead.  But this is a misinterpretation of the scriptures.  Every Jew secretly believes in an immortal soul and reincarnation, just like a pagan druid or a pagan Egyptian does.  The only difference is monotheism and polytheism.  One God or Many Gods.  So you can be a good pagan or a good Jew and reach the same end.  But I have still not found a real Christian.  Someone who practices what they preach.  Nobody is perfect, everyone sins, lust is incessant, and everyone dies.  And since your soul will outlive your body, we don't need a physical resurrection.  That is just mythology. 

Basic Human Civility means medicine and education for all paid for by the state.  If you can't work, you deserve a basic income from the government and live on a low budget.  You do not owe the government anything, they owe you.  As a citizen of your country, you are valuable and important and have certain inalienable rights.  Obviously, with free education, anyone with some kind of talent can get a certificate, BA, or something similar and get paying work in something they are interested in.  If medicine doesn't cost you anything, then doctors don't get rich and don't prescribe unnecessary surgeries and treatments just to get rich.  Doctors in Israel are poor but hard working and altruistic.

I know my life will improve once I get back to Israel. One man's trash is another man's treasure.  In America, I am trash, but in Israel, I am treasure.  And ultimately, Israel is the holy land and America is the Whore of Babylon.  People start in student loan debt, live paycheck to paycheck, and die in medical debt.  All the while, they eat low quality food that makes them ill and watch too much porno.  The American lifestyle is exhausting and is all based on imitating Hollywood. 

Basic Human Civility means justice.  It means giving to those who have to little and taking from those who have too much.  Americans seem to do the oppposite.  To think, if I am richer, it is because my genome is more preferential and I am a real survivor.  But business is warfare and based on deception not on being objectively better.  Greco Roman Wrestling is about being objectively better, you throw and pin the weaker man and assert dominance.  White society is nothing like Greco Roman Wrestling.  It is more like a shanking in the prison cafeteria.  It has nothing to do with being fair, honest, straightforward, or better.

So I will live quietly in America til it's time to move back to Israel.  All in all, I wasted my youth, young adulthood, twenties, thirties, and only at the age of 39 did I discover writing and publishing music.  The past two years have been a ball.  The creativity unleashes something latent within you.  My music marketing guru was a retarded man with a speech impediment.  I don't look down on him, he helped me.  But I learned that even below average people can have the courage and mental toughness to apply themselves and see where it gets them.  I am above average in talent, if I apply myself, I could be a celebrity.  So my life began in zen and ended in music.  It was not a waste, and I am glad I was born and never quit.  It is only once you consider yourself defeated that you are defeated. 

The real secret to success is to do a little bit every day and never quit on yourself.  Basic Human Civility means giving to those who have too little.  I want to give my music to the world and also write books on Taoist Nutrition so people won't be used by the system in America.  I have 5 albums and 2 books right now online.  I want to heal the people, and I do it through entertainment and through education.  That is the best, when you can entertain and educate at the same time.

I think I'm onto something.

Desire

You will learn someday, that desire moves the cosmos.  Power is not power.  Love is power.  The desire gives you the will to fight, to love, to heal, to create, do whatever you want to do. 

I've been doing both music and grappling a long time.  My scholastic educations did not seem to help me much.  But music and grappling, hobbies I've had since the 1990s, did.  I spent more time sharing judo with the world than my music.  I played music since 1995, but only started publishing records in 2017.  Don't want to be way late.

I wasted a lot of time.  Had I started recording albums sooner, and playing infront of people when I was 19, I would be a millionare musician by now.  But that didn't happen.  I saw Royce Gracie in the UFC and became obsessed with judo and jiu-jitsu.  I wanted to be the champion.

Now that I am 41, I can't really be a touring musician.  I'm too old and slow.  I can't do 2 hour live sets infront of many people.  At best, I can play at a church or synagogue and dream of things that might have been. 

But at least my education helped me, I attained zen, and my hobbies have become full time occupations.  I am still a musician and grappler.  But because I was immature and wanted to be the champion, I spent more time doing judo and less time doing music.

What I am trying to impart is, don't have distorted values.  Self defense is for children.  The reason you do karate, judo, or any other martial art is to empower you to do something in the world, not to be Cassius.  I should have done something else than master judo and matwork.  But it is too late to do something else. Change is bad.  Start in your youth, and keep doing it til its done.  So I must grapple again, even though I have kind of outgrown grappling, and not switch to something else. 

I want to live out my days in peace, living on a budget, training matwork, playing music at the religious center, and eating good food.  I am less ambitious and more fulfilled.  So I am doing better than most Americans, who want more money and power and women. 

Desire moves the cosmos.  Sex is a physical reaction, love is an emotion.  You can love a girlfriend, a wife, a car, a guitar, a song, a book, etc...  The emotion is the important part not the tangible reality.  Music is all emotional and intangible.  Judo is about the right thing at the right time.

So I will not lament the misspent past.  Just do what I can while I can still do it.  That's all.

Music and Sport in the Dominican Repbulic

Some people are less ambitious but more fulfilled.  I know Dominicans, Haitians,and Jamaicans, and they are lively people.  They are essentially blacks mixed in with native Americans who speak various languages of Europe.  They come from the Caribbean, and live more humble, simple lives.

America is all about business and warfare.  And business itself is a kind of warfare, based on deception not being stronger and better.  Americans are ten times richer than any other country, but they are not ten times better off.  Most people I see are less fit, less happy, have wrinkly faces, and look mentally ill and unstable.

So what is money worth?  All you need is to pay the bills and then stop.  Money is worldly value, Love is spiritual value.  Get the money, take care of what you need to take care of, and then do what you love.  Life is too short to not do what you love. 

Freud said, 'work and love, love and work, that's all there is.'  He was right.  You either do it for the love or for the money.  A prostitute's job is to make love for money.  But she is just doing acts of physical gratification not making love.  She doesn't care who she is fucking, it's just a business.  Similarly, a cagefighter is just fighting in a cage for money.  He doesn't care who he is fighting, he is doing it for the money.  Prostitutes love sex and cagefighters love fighting.  Porno and MMA are big businesses in America.

Society is degrading and America is lowest common denominator.  Money and everything else.  I am trying to help America, by teaching them how to be happy.  Less is more, not more is more.  More stuff does not make you more happy.  Stuff cannot make you happy.

I like music and sport.  I am part Latino, not just Jewish.  My favorite sport is judo, and my favorite music is rhythm and blues from the 1960s.  I like other sports and other forms of music, but in general that is true.  I have had experiences with boxing, sambo, flamenco music, rock n roll, and reggae.  But in general, I like music and sport.  I am less ambitious but more fulfilled.  So who's better?

I will continue doing what I love, sharing it with others, and getting out of the house.  I am not motivated by the money, I am self sufficient because I budget myself and don't really value material goods.  I budget per day, per week, and per month.  Life in any society goes month by month. 

I would like to visit the Dominican Republic but I can't afford it right now.  I feel it is my spiritual homeland.  I also like Israel and Mexico.  Living all your life in the suburbs of New York City is boring.  I don't need to spend all my time here.

All I know is, my music is exceptional, and if I keep going in this way, there will be results.  My judo career is practically over, but my music career is just starting.  Music is not based on phsyicality.  It is not a sport.  You can play a guitar from age 8 to 80.  John Lee Hooker played until he died at age 90. 

So now, as I approach middle age, I can say my athletic career helped me get mentally tough, become proud of my heritage, and empowered me not be a quitter.  Combat sports are cool, it is fighting with rules.  You either win or lose and you don't complain.  It's a fair contest. 

Music is entertainment, and both the looks and the talent of the musician matters.  It takes 20 years to master a skill, and I've been doing music over 20 years.  So I am a blues master.  I will keep going in this direction and be happy with it.

My Muse

I like the rhythm and blues.  Today's music is a crapulent, distorted descendent of Chuck Berry and John Lee Hooker.  The delta blues which became the rhythm and blues is a combination of music and poetry of oppressed people.

I am tired of trying to be a copywriter or designer.  I don't want to work in an office.  It's not worth my time and effort.  I can learn to live on less money. 

The delta blues of the 1930s and 1940s became the rhythm and blues of the 50s and 60s.  This spawned the past 50 years or so of music. 

The thing about being a bluesman is, you got to cop your own style.  You listen to a lot of musicians, you start to imitate them, and then you find your own unique approach.  Then once you have a unique sound, you reinvent it each song you write.  Muddy Waters did this, so did John Lee Hooker.  So did Chuck Berry and Mississippi John Hurt.  They were clever songwriters and did more with less.

The muse is the inspiration.  It is something mysterious and stays with you all the time, night and day.  Life would be a mistake without music, everyone needs some type of music at some point.  People can do without art galleries and books, but no one can do without music.  Even geeks listen to music.

So I find inspiration in the music of the hard times, and I create my own unique sound.  The blues is the music of tragedy, and I've suffered a lot of tragedy.  I have not had an easy life.  But reversal is the movement of the Tao.

A New Thing

This is an artwork I recolored today and added some text.  It was originally an interpretation of a Roy Lichtenstein artwork I saw in a book about his career.  I like the way he elevated comic book art to high art through clever use of humor and aesthetics.

Here it is below:

Sunrise with Text

This is a reworking of an old art design with a brief poem or title on it.  Within the frame says, "Another Day Approaches as the Sun Rises'.  It also has the title of the artwork in the bottom right corner of the work. 

My life is getting more quiet as I age.  I concentrate on music, aikido, cooking, swimming, and dating women in a low socioeconomic bracket.  But I find time for art and like to recolor old artworks as a kind of mental and emotional therapy towards myself.  It's good for me.  

The secret to success is to do a little bit every day, and never give up on yourself.  Where there is effort, there is always results.

Chef Boyardee

This is just a jokey title for a blog post.  I enjoy cooking and have a comprehensive knowledge of nutrition.  My main talents are in music and grappling, but over the years, I have studied nutrition and learned a lot of cooking at home through trial and error.

I even spent a year or two with a master of raw foods veganism, learning how to make vegan dishes in a certain way in accordance with the teaching of one vegan guru or another.  I no longer believe veganism is the right thing for everyone.  But at least there are people who know nutrition and eat too little not too much food.

The main thing in food is protein, fiber, and starch.  Protein is the main nutrient, our bodies are made up of protein.  Even the DNA of our bodies tell our own cells how to reconstitute amino acids into our own proteins.  There is protein in plant and animal foods, but animal protein is easier to digest and assimilate. 

Fiber is the indigestible carbohydrate in food that cleanses your colon and gives you satiety.  It is also the most probiotic thing there is.  Fiber has no use to our body, and yet, it is extremely valuable. We cannot do without it, and most plant foods in nature have fiber in them.  So you need a diet of both protein and vegetables, and don't neglect either.

Starch is important.  It fuels your performance.  Starch is the storage form of glucose, or blood sugar.  Starch is found in things like beans, corn, potatoes, peas, carrots, rice, bread, pasta, quinoa, etc...  The more active you are, the more starch you need to fuel your life, and the less active you are, the less starch you need.

The Atkins diet is good if you are 30 or more pounds overweight.  It is a good start for people in America who are tired and sick and heavy.  But it is not a lifelong solution, and eating a diet of just protein, vegetables, and cheese is not too smart.

So I know what I must do to stay healthy.  I want to be disability free all my lifespan, so I eat what my body needs not what I want to enjoy.  Food is fuel.

My two main careers now are the music and the Aikido.  These are things I've been doing over 20 years each.  But food is very important to me.  If I didn't eat right, I'd be sick and then I wouldn't be able to be a musician or grappler.  Eating right is the foundation of health and medicine. 

What really sparked me to learn about nutrition was gaining weight from certain meds I took in my mid 20s.  I wanted to lose the weight, so I studied nutrition, cookbooks, and the Atkins diet to cure my problem.  This is how I learned about nutrition, by getting sick in the first place.  Reversal is the movement of the Tao.  Now at 41, I look much younger than my age, and I am more fit than most men over 30.  So I didn't waste my time or effort.  I have a lot of knowledge, and I already wrote two books which are available on Amazon.  They are 'Sport and Physical Culture' and 'Taoist Nutrition'. 

So I have learned a lot over the years, and I find that the most important message you can impart to the youth is, college is a scam, and if you really want to empower yourself, learn on your own.  The library, the bookstore, and online video course sites like Udemy and Skillshare are really more useful than a college degree.  You learn by doing, not by digesting someone else's knowledge.  I learned music, grappling, and nutrition by myself, and these are things that still help me on a daily basis.  My acupuncture and graphic design degrees do not help me. 

So in addition to whatever I do, I see nutrition as the foundation of medicine and the first knowledge to acquire in life.  By 15, you should know nutrition, and I know 40 year olds that don't know the difference between fiber and starch.  American society has debased values and I am trying to help.  Donald Trump is trying to aggrandize himself, but I am trying to help.  So he is bad and I am good.  But you don't have to believe me. 

The point of this blog post is, teach yourself by learning on your own.  Knowledge is power, and the more you learn, the better a person you are.  Don't go to school just for a certificate with your name on it.  Learn enthusiastically and practice when you are not in school.  You learn by doing, and you get good through experience.  This is called duty concomitant with desire.