You Never Stop Learning

 I realize that I am old before my time.  While I am chronologically in middle age, I feel younger but look older.  So I am in a unique position.  Time is running out to establish myself, and I don't feel as successful as I want to be.

I am lessening the desire to achieve what people in the media or characters in movies achieve.  I know that is not reality.  But even some people in my own neighborhood know more or have more.  So I need to get on my bike.  And I see phases come and go.

Generally, a decade is a generation.  I used to think twenty years was a generation, but later I realized I was too passive and dare I say overly-patient with the course of events.  You need to seize the day and accumulate results by doing something every day, day in day out.

I can say I am in my 40s an feel fit and healthy.  But I don't look young any more and know women are not hot for me like they used to be.  I say this tongue in cheek.  Most people equate youth with money, looks, and power.  But I saw youth as preparation for what lies ahead.

I'm proud of who I have become, don't get me wrong.  I know Tai Chi, Music, Nutrition, Drawing, Budgeting, Sexology, Driving a car with expert skill, etc...But that is not what makes you feel fulfilled in life.  Being 'The Master' doesn't make you feel good.  It is connection with others that gives you a happy heart.  And now, I don't have many connections.

So all the youth reading my blog should consider their aspirations before moving on.

Ruminations on Coins

 Money is the only man made value.  Commodities like oil, silver, gold, pork bellies, and oranges have innate value.  But money is printed by the government and has universal value.

America started out as a Portuguese colony to find exotic vegetables and such and ended a place where people fight over ideas and don't feel they are getting what they are worth.

There were many conquering, sailing nations in Western Europe.

Making a living is about budgeting.  Don't spend everything you have in one payment period.  Think in terms of 1, 3, 7, 21 and so on.  This helps you enjoy the present in moderation but have enough for emergencies and a bit saved up before the next payment period.

I have learned a lot over my time.

In The Spirit

 The best idea in native american thought and mythology is the concept of the spirit animal.  Each person has a face that resembles the animal they are most like in personality.  Form follows function, and form creates function.  The way we are shaped will determine the way our bodies can move.  The face indicates what type of man or woman you are.

I believe I am a wolf.  My features resemble that of a canine.  And not only do I have the long nose, round eyes, dark eyebrows, and clever mouth of a canine, some of my personality traits are similar to wolf traits as well.  Wolves are not all bad.  Some are noble predators, skillful hunters, and tender fathers.

A person has five limbs and a person also has five spirit animals.  But one animal always predominates.  So my prevailing trait is, I am voracious at spiritual seeking.  A wolf has a strong appetite, and spirituality is what I think about the most.  I lead such a spiritual life that the beliefs have become subconscious.

I reflect on myself today, and think how in my different pursuits, I embody different traits.  But when it comes to spirituality, I have an endless appetite for books, people, and experiences.

So it's been a hard summer and I've grown a lot.  I feel one part of my life is over and other has begun.  40 is the midpoint in life.  People who live to 100 are special.  So I know I have more time on earth.

I was explaining today to a friend that between to mountains is a valley, and when you reach the valley and start going up the second mountain, that is the most exciting phase of the journey.  You are done with the fun part, you've been through the trial, and now everything is uphill and towards the sky.  The sky is the goal.

So I am in the spirit and I know who I am.

Growing Up

 When we are young, we are inundated with ideas from the media about what we will be when we are done growing up.  It is hard to be sober when youthful exuberance is flowing through your veins and there is pressure from your friends as well as what you see on television.

When I was young, I liked playing guitar as well as martial arts.  UFC came out right when I was a sophmore in high school.  I liked music and how women respond to the sound of my guitar, but I also liked winning and feeling vindicated.  

I chose to focus on martial arts not thinking much about the future.  It was fun to win, but I didn't realize there would be life after sport.  My music only came out years after I stopped playing judo, and the music wasn't pushed through and marketed well because I had spent most of my time amongst athletes not in the entertainment industry.  My music was good between 2017 and 2019.  And then it began fizzling out.  

So I can say I forgot music in favor of judo and grappling.  That was a mistake.  But at least I have graphic design, or advertising art, to help me through this second phase of life.  Going to work may not be as exciting as being a rockstar, but it pays the bills. 

So I guess everyone on some level gets more mature with time and disillusioned with the idea of stardom.  I missed out.  But at least I still have something.

The Winter Blah

 Life on earth moves through cycles.  There are four seasons where I am from.  And winter is the hardest to get through.  Weather really does make a difference.

Sky Blue

In nature, couples often mate only in season.  Humans are supposed to have a feast and make love around the Harvest Moon, or Halloween.  The child gestates during the winter and is born during the summer.  Late children are often precocious and wise, and too late children have defects and sometimes are born too large.  Emulating nature is important.

I love the summer.  It is so brief, and yet, it is so memorable.  And sometimes it lasts into September or October.  Halloween is originally a celebration of the end of the summer.  And Celtic themes abound through my art and writings.

Art is important.  I have taken some time off from art but now I am back.  Looking back on my career, art and blogging is more important than music and judo.  I think about my life a lot and what I have accomplished.  Every teenager likes wrestling, rock n roll, pizza, and dating.  And then you got to get a job skill in college and move on.  So I am moving on.

In the future, my art will move and change and grow.  I want to explore Chinese themes and nature themes and deal with Christian subjects.  I remember how my art began with one-layer designs with crude white outlines, then moved to black and white line art, and then finally became bright comics based on Photoshop coloring techniques I learned from Kurt Michael Russell and his videos.

I want to visit a fourth stage.  And I want to think about selling more artworks in the future.  So keep an eye on this blog for more posts.

Back to Basics

 The last season of 2020 was brutal.  I cannot explain it.  I have been upside down and backwards.  I look back on this blog and see that it has taken some twists and turns.  It started out in 2017 promoting my art and about a year ago it became more philosophical in nature.  I am trying to bring it back.

I know it is simple.  It was done in Photoshop using black brush on white background.  It is representational of an Aztec sun pyramid in the mountains.  

Lately, I have been living in a predominantly Indian neighborhood.  I walk everywhere.  And I find myself living a more Indian kind of lifestyle.

I hope to learn to monetize something I do.  So far, I have monetized designs, ala carte articles, and office work.  But I want to go further into art.  With my design degree, there is credibility.

So as this year goes by, and 2021 is fast approaching, we are all getting into focus.  I have always known I wanted to be a writer.  And now I get to tell stories using technology.

How I Won The War

 America will win.  Russia, the Afghans and Hindus, and the Africans are the worst cultures.  The West is the Best.  Jim Morrison was a kind of prophet.  The NorthEast means the Kings.  The SouthWest means the soldiers.  And the New World was meant to be won.

It turns out music, pornography, the restaurant business, and combat sports were just invented to pervert the world.  The world needs culture.  The West went East and the East went West.  The center is the center.  And Israel has faith and morality.

So I survived a lot.  It was a combat zone.  I had to hide to be redeemed out of Zion.  And I helped the West win.  A flawed prophet must stay, and a righteous killer must bless the blessed and curse the cursed.  And the dragon lives forever.

I hope to continue this blog a while.  The world needs art and philosophy.  This is the source of culture.

Inspired By The Muse

 Hello.  My name is Lior Avni.  After many years of writing this blog for the benefit of the people, I forgot to introduce myself.  I am some guy from long island who plays the guitar and writes on the computer.  I like to give it and not take it.

I feel I am benefiting society with my knowledge.  I am something of a musician and scholar.  I will not go to far into this.

The music comes from the muse.  The muse is the inspiration.  I am inspired.  Thoughts become words, and and emotions become songs.  An emotion is just a memory of how you felt in the past.  And when you play your giutar, it is like you are making love or communicating with the person you are thinking about.

Music is more than just sounds.  It is moving and real and living.  Music is moving, art is fixed in one place.  In biblical history, Jubal invented music, Ooman invented art.  Jubal was a descendent of Cain, Ooman was a descendant of Seth.  Abel was not really interested in these kind of things.  But I admire Abel.  He died without children and ultimately came back to be somebody.  Abel is a cool guy.

So I conclude that music is better, for me, than art.  Poetry is part of everything we do as people.  Our first skill is to speak.  A person who cannot speak is considered dumb.  If a person is blind, deaf, and dumb, he is really in trouble.  So Hellen Keller overcame tremendous adversity.

I like stories of people who overcame tremendous odds.  And I like exceptional cases.  And I like talented failures, strong jews, good losers, humble champions, and comeback kids.  There are always exception to the rule.

So I am an inspired musician and I keep keepin on.  And I see no end in sight.  Most of my albums were released in a span of two or three years.  And I am still going strong.  I do not need to write new songs or learn new things.  I have a catalogue of songs to draw upon.  So I will go out, play during the day, play during the night, and balance between art, music, and poetry.  Life is good.  See ya on the flipside.  

Sporty Spice

 I went to a nice high school.  I didn't realize it was jam packed with talent.  And I busted out and made something of myself.  I went through disgrace, upset, tribulation, and heartache.  And I still held out til the end.  I was disabled from youth, and one day I walked in with a grotesque hunchback and they said, 'this guy is ok'.  But I digress.

I don't care about money.  It is just a kind of objectification of value.  I did a lot of stuff with my life.  Booyah.  I am living on a low budget but I give away my creative stuff for the people because I feel I am indebted to society.  But now I am going on offense.

You don't deserve free shit.  Nobody does.  This blog is now a kind of vehicle of dissemination to the public.  I give you ideas, and you take the ball and run with it.  Take it.

So I was inspired by two girls in high school.  One Irish, and one Asian.  And now I am learning to appreciate myself.  Booyah.

I learned art, bodybuilding, and sexology in the 10s.  And now I am going strong.  When you repress something in your daily life, it comes out in your sleep.  And when you die with and unfulfilled desire, it manifests in your next life.  When you die, content, then you can rest.  And I will not rest. I will not stop until I am done.

So Vader is actually the good guy, and Luke, Solo, and Leah are just average people.  I still like Princess Leah.  She blew it up.  Everyone thought she was just a Jewish lady with a bouffant hairdo, but she really tore them up.  And now they are crying for their mother.

So I learned what is really real.  Monogamy is legit.  The Celts did handfasting for years.  And the Chinese love their unique culture.  And the Mexicans do the right thing and do it well.  I am not getting racial.

So I am learning to unlearn.  Follow me, I know the way..

My King is Righteousness

 People do not want to hear about religion.  They don't care.  Most men are punks.  They have two inch cocks, can't fight, only make money to spend on prostitutes.  All women are prostitutes.  There is no free love.  There never was.

The story of Melchizedek is that he is the last Hebrew prophet.  Enoch the Wise was an inspired man who did no wrong.  He went up to heaven without dying.  He left behind many books, that his son Methuselah read.  That is why Methuslah lived so long.  He had to read his father's books.

Elijah the Prophet was an inspired man who ascended to heaven in a fiery chariot.  And he never returned to Earth.

There was one evil prophet called Ezra El.  Who had to die to be vindicated in death, and after death, became an Angel.  So there are transcendent immortals in the bible.

I believe that I am the last prophet.  I am not fit for this world.  This world is just a society of thieves.  They don't care what is morally right or wrong.  They just want money and women.  That is the devil's religion.  Money and Women.  And I am so spiritually inclined that I don't care about money and women.

I always believed that I am not a human being and therefore not subject to human law.  An angel is not subject to human law, he is subject to Submission to God's decree.  God is greater than mortal man.

So the whole concept of money escaped me.  It is just green paper or numbers on a computer screen.  It means nothing.  Corn grows from the earth.  It has no intrinsic value.  You only out value on it to deceive people.

America was founded on the plantation system, and we are all just picking cotton.  20 dollars an hour is not enough to live a full life.  50,000 per year is not a living wage.  And I live on 12,000 per year and live better than millionares because I know how to cook, how to budget, and how to entertain myself for free.

It turns out, there is no nobility.  And, there is no slavery.  It is open market economy.  And in the end, I retire a millionare who made a full career in two years.  Most men make 100,000 dollars per year for 40 years. And made 4 million in two years.  So I am 20 times as efficient as most men.  And creative work has more value than landscapers or busboys or ceviche chefs.  

So I will know that there is peace beyond.  I wanted to be a musican and grappler.  But after coming full circle, I realized art and nutrition is better.  The meaning of life is to make correction.  A child wants wrestling and music and pizza.  But a man learns to become mature and be responsible.  So through rebirth, I learned to come back.

In a span of 12 years, I learned blogging, copywriting, cartooning, nutrition, and sexology.  These are all aspects of art and physical education.  My latent desire was to be young and beautiful forever.

An idealistic man dreams of Gan Eden.  The Asians say Shangrila.  And the Portuguese say 'Utopia'.  This was an important lesson in my life.  I am the most idealistic man who ever lived, and since I am so spiritually inclined, I don't care about the world.

So I learned what I needed to learn.  Since the fall from Grace, man must learn to be responsible and do what he must do.  We must cultivate grain and eat meat, and the compensation for labor is money.  I have more talent than most men.  But since I am physically disabled, I cannot work physical labor.  But where there is a will, there is a way.  I was always sitting down or standing in one place.  But I can use my hands, my voice, and my heart.  So I mastered cartooning, cooking 30 minute meals, and speaking to my friends.  And these skills are legit.

So I will retire this blog, and not post again.  I hope you had fun.  It has been a long time.  I gave away a lot of ideas.  And I did it all just to help the world.

I AM BORN AGAIN.

 A good person is not afraid to die.  The light is in your heart.  The light means God.  And when you die, your light simply expands out into the universe.  So there is no death.  All these ideas of Nimrod, of the underworld, the Elusian fields, of Hades, of Heaven, are derived from crime and punishment.

The orgasm is the little death.  The physical death is the big death.  Dying is the best feeling in the world, because it is the shedding of the physical body.  The physical body is the burden of sin.  Nobody wants to hear about spiritual truth, but I am not intent on being popular.  I am not a contender for Mr. Congeniality.

Cowards will do anything to stay alive.  A rat on a sinking ship will claw and run and scream.  But it can't win.

I didn't know what spiritually immortal vs physically immortal meant.  And I didn't know what Taoist Sexology meant.

So I am in a brand new phase.  I feel free.  The meaning of Christianity is the Kingdom.  When you read the bible, you understand what God knows.  We can only know the Akashic Record, God knows all of it.

So in several stages I learned things.  And I learned to unlearn things.  There is no need to discuss.  I am moving into a different phase of life.  I want to teach nutrition to children and do religious art.  That was the original role of the priest, to educate children and draw pictures for the simple people to learn.

Pagan sexual morality was rooted in low self esteem and the inability to get a girl.  All mental illness is rooted in low self esteem.  You think you are greater when you know you are lesser.

So I see America as a whorehouse that needs reform.  I learned wrong ways of life, but didn't give up on myself.  And now I am back.

So watch out.

Here below is my chosen artwork.  My masterpiece.

Lior and Gaby

The Embodiement of Adam and Eve.  

This is the vision of the ideal marriage.  It is not about work and serving the woman.  It is not about being rich and respected.  It is about living and working and resting and playing and eating.  A woman doesn't need a rich man, she just wants to have a good life.  In the Garden of Eden, Adam was a landscaper and Eve was his live in lover.  They had no need for war, violence, hunting, fishing, growing grain, etc...  They simply lived in nature.  All society was simply for prostitution, and Adam lost everything when he fell.  A good man can admit when he is wrong.  A bad man cannot admit he is wrong.  The Fall was the most tragic thing, and there is no going back.  Selah.

Victory At Last!

I didn't think this would happen.  I made America great again.

For a long time, they have been fooling us.  Even America itself was just a sugar plantation.  And in the 1950s, the increases in agricultural methods led to a surplus of rice and corn that they could feed to animals.  With more production of meat and milk, they could have more merchandise to sell to the American public.  So clever propgandists devised marketing strategies to sell more meat and milk to people.

There were dairy farmers who purported 'you need milk for strong bones!'.  It turns out, no one after childhood needs dairy, and dairy actually weakens your bones.  It also makes you wrinkly before your time.

And the myth that you need beef to be strong was disastrous.  Beef is actually the worst, lowest efficiency protein and brings with it salt, fat, toxicity, and doesn't chew well.  No more sloppy joes.

All the foods we take for granted are bad.  The cheeseburger was from Arabia.  Pizza was designed to make us diabetic.  Corona Virus was designed to sell masks.  Open Market Economy can be used to simply survive or rob you.

And most people want to rob you.  What is the objective value of a handjob?  I felt I was paying too much.

So America is all about business and warfare and dating.  But they don't care.  A Samurai uses his strength for good, and a ninja stabs you in the back and makes off with the loot.  If you can't spar you can't fight.

So America is a nation founded on war.  And there is good and bad in every flock.  It is up to you to be ethical.  So I feel I won the war by sitting this one out in the dugout.  I literally spent 12 years on my bed like Boddhidharma in the cave.  And then I invented something.  It's rigged.

The Rise and Fall of Beliefs

I see how things change.  Ten years is a huge span of time in a man's life.  That is why our lives go by decades.  When we listen to music, we think in terms of 80s, 90s, and so on.  Ten years is a lot of time in a person's life.  And 20 years is technically a generation.

I remember the 90s.  I was a teenage boy.  And I masturbated a lot.

So people come and people go.  I have had a few relationships, much fewer than most.  But I am into quality not quantity.  I knew maybe 4 or so good girls.  And as one fades away, another comes in.  Don't hold on to anyone.  Treasure yourself.  The first experience is usually just for learning.  I almost did surprise butt sex.

And there were friends here and there.  But you must learn to let go.  There is nothing you can hold on to.  And death is not the end.

So I will move on from my previous experiences and man up.  True Love is a fairy tale, relationships don't last that long, and people change.  The reason why Larry King could have 6 different wives in 6 different decades is because the guy is made of money.  Socioeconomics is a factor in dating.

But I met and kept only good people.  I will not name names.  People move on.

Even in business, people change.  I know one guy who started out a grappler, then explored music, then explored pugilism, then became a construction manager who works on cars, etc... But he still has that street credibility.  Most guys can't punch.

So things change.  And I must change.  I realize I am not a spring chicken.  A man over 30 or 40 is not viable for reproduction.  But you can still have some fun in other ways.  I am talking stress relief.

So people change and people move on.  You exist before birth and after death.  The teaching of the Gita is that atman and Brhaman are the same, and the body simply rises and falls.  So the soul is immortal.

I will continue doing what I enjoy.  I like art, communications, poetry, cooking, and some basic exercises like walking and tai chi.  Nobody listens to guitar music anymore.  Paul is dead.  And judo gave way to BJJ and the tap out boys.  

So I move on.  Let it go.  

I Get Ideas

Working these days is easy.  The internet and computer has allowed it that anybody can work.  Geeks have taken over the world.  Marketing, Graphic Design, and Coding are big businesses.  And you can work from home now.

I have some plans.  Between 2017 and 2020, I released 6 albums and 2 books.  And then I moved out.

I want to resume work.  I am not intent on making more albums.  But I want to write more books and create more videos for YouTube.  I see potential.  

I have given away a lot of free information.  I am not stupid.  But I see my work as a service to society.  I educate the people, and they give me free shit.

So look out for more stuff.  I want to write a book about health and nutrition.  And I want to produce more videos.  A musician has emotions and a writer has intellect.  A mindless man cannot think, and a crippled man cannot dance.  But I digress.

So don't expect free shit from me.  I want to take over the world.  No I don't.  I want work/life balance.  And in the end, I feel good.  I sleep about 4 hours per day, work about 4 hours per day, and have fun 14 hours per day.  So my life is great.  What's money?

I will be get more productive in the next few months and give it all away.  Peace on Earth.  I don't do it for the money.  I do it for the Love.

Rebirth

Every day, I await the coming of the dawn.  Japan is known as 'the house of the rising sun.'  I identify with Osiris and the Sun God.  Each day, he is born in the East, goes over the land, dies in the West, and gets reborn in the East.  So a man who loves life identifies with the Sun.

This is where all religion comes from.  It started with the Celts and Egyptians and ended with Azrael.  It is the same principle.  Nature is what God created, and Nature created us.  Every good scientist is also religious.  Even Copernicus and Galileo were religious men who were also intelligent.

So arguing evolution vs christianity is pointless.  They are both impartial ways of looking at the same truth.  No one knows.  And the more you learn, the more there is to learn.

So each day I am born again.  Dawn is like birth, mid day is like summer, and the night time is like Halloween.  And midnight is like Christmas.  A day is like a year.

So this is real spirituality.  It is not based on books or prayers or raceology or the good vs the bad.  That is mythology.  People identify with the sun and worship nature.  And all people love art, writing, food, swimming at the beach, and chatting with their friends.  Sex is just for lust.

So good people want to live in peace and bad people want more stuff.  But you cannot add on to life.  It is what it is.  Life is good enough.

So a good man just wants to live a certain lifestyle and enjoy the process.  And he knows death is just sleep.

I like art and writing and I used to like music.  But now I know music is entertainment and art is culture.  Art is more important.  When people are young, they love going to concerts, wrestling tournaments, pizza shops, the diner, the park, and hanging out with their friends.  But then you turn 18 and you need to get a job.

So life is like a song in that you start at one place, you go through a bunch of changes, and you end where you started.  But through rebirth, you get born again.  So there is no end.

I Got The Juice

In Spanish, we use the word Jugo to mean 'the juice'.  The Juice gives you power.  When someone is using steroids, we say 'he is juiced up'.  But I get high on mango and guava nectar.

In the 90s, I began study of music and martial arts.  I like both playing the guitar and rolling half guard.  I started guitar lessons in 1995 and grappling in 1998.  Hobbies are what you do because you want to do it.  If you start between 8 and 15, by the time you are in your late twenties, you will be a young master.

I could easily teach music lessons and Aikido lessons.  But my main career is in graphic design.  But that is something I do for the money.  If there was no money involved, I wouldn't even do it.  But I love the money.

Both music and any kind of combat sport or martial art is based on your innate body type and personality.  The way you play the guitar is an extension of your innate being.  I am strong and slow with energy and agility in the fingers.  So I play melodic rhythm on an acoustic guitar.  And I have a speech impediment so I must write simpler lyrics that say more with less.  John Lee Hooker was below average everything, and yet he was determined to make something of himself.  And he did.

In combat sports and martial arts, it is the same principle.  Kickboxing is for people who are strong and fast and aggressive.  Judo is for people who are strong and slow and have endurance and know a bunch of funky techniques.  Grappling and MMA is not my style.  There is also traditional stuff like Karate and Aikido.

So I do not believe you can teach one size fits all.  You must analyze what the student is like, what is style is, and what is appropriate to him.  One man's trash is another man's treasure. 

Even in diet, there is on thing appropriate to this man, and one thing appropriate to another.  It is not one size fits all.

So I like music and martial arts because it is big on long island and it is a happening scene.  Kickboxing is very popular, and there are lots of bars in long island and New York City.  I have played guitar at coffeeshops and restaurants.  And it feels good to play a guitar in front of people and pretend I am Chuck Berry on steroids.

So what I am trying to say is, your style is unique and you must express yourself before you are dead in the grave.

Budo

I am starting to think less about self defense and combat.  I want better things in life.  There is a difference between boxing and MMA and karate and all that jazz.  MMA doesn't work, it is a kind of contest.  Nobody kicks from far away and grapples in close.  The foundational skill of pankration is wrestling on the knees and kicking from far away.  But this doesn't work.  The reason why they kick in MMA is because if they commit to the punches the other guy will shoot and tackle them. 

The real world is about punching and weapons.  Self Defense is about punching them before they punch you.  Sometimes, they clinch you before you put your hands up, and it ends in a pinning situation.  In self defense, just punch and establish range.  The main thing of boxing is the jab and footwork.

I was deluded about grappling and MMA.  It is garbage.  When I was in these BJJ dojos, I noticed they are all arrogant champions and they don't know sport is not reality.  It is just a training tool.

I am starting to like Karate and Aikido and how they go together.  It is part of Budo, the philosophy of self defense as a religion.  We live so we can fight, reproduce, and eat.  The root chakra governs food, sex, and aggression.  We eat to live, we fight to live, and we reproduce constantly because reproduction is a kind of genetic immortality.  The meaning of life is to keep living.

All martial arts originated with Pelawani and Kung Fu.  The Indians and Chinese are very similar to each other and learn from each other.  Kung Fu is about punching, trapping, and weapons.  Real fighting involves weapons.  The main thing is to punch, clinch, and use melee weapons.  Everyone knows this.

Now that I am reaching maturity, I know self defense is for children.  Aggression is wrong.  Nonviolence is the best self defense.  When you do no harm, no harm is done to you.  The only way to win anything or be a champion is by knowing action-reaction.

I used to think about Aryan Supremacy, Psychology, Nietzsvhe's philosophy and Judo alot.  But this is all poppycock.  No one is superior.  Being a wrestling or judo champion is just kid's stuff.  All the ideas of Europe of the 19th century were based on grandiosity.  Even psychology, which is based on Nietzsche's philosophy is wrong and based on not believing in the immortal soul.  Hitler was arrogant, Nietzsvhe thought he was better than God, Psychology is about weilding power over others, and wrestling and judo is useless.  People laugh at wrestling champions because it doesn't work and it doesn't make you better.  Nobody cares if you are the champion.  And belt rank started in judo as a measure of progress.  In kung fu, there are no belts.

The zen lifestyle is about living a simple life and being quiet.  Food, sex, and aggression is just the begining.  A good man wants peace, eats simply, and moderates sexuality.  And then you go up from there.  Enlightenment means the kundalini awakening.  

So I am learning to move on.  I like music and zen and nutrition and my art.  Karate is for kids, and although boxing is fun to watch, it is too exciting and infuriating.  I just want peace and to enter a different state of maturity.  

I know I must live a better life.  So I am moving on.  

Hell Mouth

I am interested in Latin culture.  There are many authors in Latin America that are translated into English.  Most famous of all were Castaneda and Ruiz.  There is western yoga like there is Eastern yoga.  Aztec Yoga is all about Sex and the Sacred.

Lust is not the most evil thing in life.  On the contrary, it is the best.  Love and Lust are two things, but you need both to be a good human being.  The light is love, and the flesh is lust.  So love is an emotion, and sex is just gratification of the body.

But as long as we are alive, we need to balance between love and lust.  You have a body, so you need to eat and sleep and bathe and all that.  And we have a spirit so we need love and emotions and wisdom and knowledge.

God is Love, and the Devil is Lust.  But don't pretend like you are not lusty.  We are animals.  Life begins at the root chakra with food, sex, and aggression.  And as you go up the spine, it ends with the crown chakra and enlightenment and Oneness.  So kundalini yoga is the real self realization.  It is becoming your full potential.

So when I see porn, I don't feel ashamed.  Every woman has sex for money.  By 15 or 16, women realize that their vagina is a commodity.  A woman can get something with her sexuality.  Nobody pays men for sex.  Even male strippers are just pretty boys doing a fantasy business.  So women have more value than men.

The aesthetics of porn is all about what we secretly value.  The main thing, no kidding, is the penis next to the woman's face.  These two things are the most beautiful things in the world.  And the ejaculation is called, 'the moneyshot' because that is what people pay to see.  The most ridiculous moneyshot is in the woman's mouth.

So sex is just about lust and expression of rage.  We are animals who think.  First thing is self defense, eating, and fucking.  If you can't do anything else, just sit around at home cooking and eating.  The root chakra is the animal part of the human being, but a human being can go beyond the animal kingdom.  That is why any human birth is fortunate.  We are better than dogs or monkeys or whatever.

I find the Latinas and Asians the most interesting.  Latin women are great at sex and very lusty.  Asian women are submissive and servile.  I am not a big fan of white and black and all that.

This post is not about porn or lust.  It is about what we see in porn.  There is an aesthetic to it.  And between porn and art is erotica.  Erotica is art about lust and sex.  

What I am trying to say is, lust is a part of life and you have to accept you are part beast before you move on to the higher realms.

Less is More

The weekend is approaching and I realize a new lesson every day.  I helped a friend do grocery shopping ai got a week's supply of groceries, and i got a few bucks in my pocket.  So I learn that you help people and they help you.  But if you stay at home philosophizing and scheming and plotting revenge, you are an impotent loser.  My nuclear family taught me wrong ideas and wrong values, and I had no one to compare to, so I thought I was one of them.

Less is more.  When you do the bare minimum, and are content with it, you get everything you need, and then you get free time and money to do whatever the hell you want.  Solomon observed this is in the bible.. Anythign beyond the bare minimum goes to someone else.  I have met a handful of friends who possess this wisdom and humility.  You do not get more stuff for doing more things.  The more you go, the less you know.  Just doing a simple life of a simple man is better than being president or being a CEO or being a rockstar.

I feel content with my life, and how I am living.  But I know if I want more women and guitars and food and more trips to the Halal restaurant, I need more money.  I am reluctant to get a real job, because I am one lazy motherfucker.  But I am starting to see what is real.  Money is power, and if I want power, I need the money.

Judo is power on a more physical level.  Work is power on a more societal level.  I have several skills i can use, including sport culture, art, music, and nutrition.  These are all aspects of shamanic culture.  In Mexcio, the healer is the leader too.  And the ideal leader is man-womanish.  White dudes laugh at the idea of an effiminate man woman.  But Latinos understand the concept of the androgyn male.  Androgyny makes you more sexy and more complete.  I notice all the rockstars from past to present were androygnous.  Beginnig Elvis, Chuck Berry, Paul McCartney, Jim Morisson, Freddie Mercury, down to all the modern guys.  Balance between masuclinity and feminity does not make you a freak, it makes you powerful because harmony is power.  Light contains 7 colors that add up to white.  When you add colors on paper, it adds up to black.  So I work with digital cartoons not solid medium.  

So I am content but willing to do more to get more.  I met many wounded warriors, many good losers, many humble champions, and many talented failures.  There are also arrogant conceited winners and rich men who think they are rick because they are better.  But there are many factors in who wins and who loses.

So if I want to live and die in peace, I must get on my bike and ride.

Show and Tell

 I think I would take this fine morning to show off one of my artworks.  In recent months, I stopped drawing and sketching new artworks and just began recoloring old line art in new ways.  I need a new scanner.  But until that time, I will make do with what I have.  I see art as being more lucrative than rock n roll music in this cultural mileu.  Nobody listens to rock n roll anymore.  It is a historic genre that died out in the late 1970s.  I guess folks today aint got the same soul.

So here is my artwork of the day.

This is an old artwork I recolored and added new typography to.  Obviously, boxing is a retarded sport for people who want to pugilize each other.  It is a legal, socially sanctioned way for alpha males to express rage and not go to the house of detention.  I find it oddly fascinating and yet I don't like it.

This design is based on a quick sketch I did on a drawing pad, scanned into the computer, and digitally colored in Photoshop.  Since I have not mastered digital rendering techniques yet, there is no cel-shading yet, so the colors are saturated with no sense of light and dark.  So the art is very bright and pure and makes you happy.  It is like an elevated children's art.

I visit the subject of pugilism a lot because it is ridiculous and yet makes me happy.  I know the features of this boxer are distorted, but smart people don't do boxing.  They get jobs.  The colors are simple, the lines are thick and done over with a marker, and the typography is just beginner level.  But I constantly aim to improve my skills.

So I should switch my focus of this blog from crazy political, racial ideas and my theories about combat sports and the history of rock n roll music and get back to promoting my art career.  I have written volumes on this blog and have given away books of ideas.  If I was smart, I would be more sneaky.  But I do not wish to give away my position.  I am incognito.

So look out for more art from me.