I Got The Juice

In Spanish, we use the word Jugo to mean 'the juice'.  The Juice gives you power.  When someone is using steroids, we say 'he is juiced up'.  But I get high on mango and guava nectar.

In the 90s, I began study of music and martial arts.  I like both playing the guitar and rolling half guard.  I started guitar lessons in 1995 and grappling in 1998.  Hobbies are what you do because you want to do it.  If you start between 8 and 15, by the time you are in your late twenties, you will be a young master.

I could easily teach music lessons and Aikido lessons.  But my main career is in graphic design.  But that is something I do for the money.  If there was no money involved, I wouldn't even do it.  But I love the money.

Both music and any kind of combat sport or martial art is based on your innate body type and personality.  The way you play the guitar is an extension of your innate being.  I am strong and slow with energy and agility in the fingers.  So I play melodic rhythm on an acoustic guitar.  And I have a speech impediment so I must write simpler lyrics that say more with less.  John Lee Hooker was below average everything, and yet he was determined to make something of himself.  And he did.

In combat sports and martial arts, it is the same principle.  Kickboxing is for people who are strong and fast and aggressive.  Judo is for people who are strong and slow and have endurance and know a bunch of funky techniques.  Grappling and MMA is not my style.  There is also traditional stuff like Karate and Aikido.

So I do not believe you can teach one size fits all.  You must analyze what the student is like, what is style is, and what is appropriate to him.  One man's trash is another man's treasure. 

Even in diet, there is on thing appropriate to this man, and one thing appropriate to another.  It is not one size fits all.

So I like music and martial arts because it is big on long island and it is a happening scene.  Kickboxing is very popular, and there are lots of bars in long island and New York City.  I have played guitar at coffeeshops and restaurants.  And it feels good to play a guitar in front of people and pretend I am Chuck Berry on steroids.

So what I am trying to say is, your style is unique and you must express yourself before you are dead in the grave.

Budo

I am starting to think less about self defense and combat.  I want better things in life.  There is a difference between boxing and MMA and karate and all that jazz.  MMA doesn't work, it is a kind of contest.  Nobody kicks from far away and grapples in close.  The foundational skill of pankration is wrestling on the knees and kicking from far away.  But this doesn't work.  The reason why they kick in MMA is because if they commit to the punches the other guy will shoot and tackle them. 

The real world is about punching and weapons.  Self Defense is about punching them before they punch you.  Sometimes, they clinch you before you put your hands up, and it ends in a pinning situation.  In self defense, just punch and establish range.  The main thing of boxing is the jab and footwork.

I was deluded about grappling and MMA.  It is garbage.  When I was in these BJJ dojos, I noticed they are all arrogant champions and they don't know sport is not reality.  It is just a training tool.

I am starting to like Karate and Aikido and how they go together.  It is part of Budo, the philosophy of self defense as a religion.  We live so we can fight, reproduce, and eat.  The root chakra governs food, sex, and aggression.  We eat to live, we fight to live, and we reproduce constantly because reproduction is a kind of genetic immortality.  The meaning of life is to keep living.

All martial arts originated with Pelawani and Kung Fu.  The Indians and Chinese are very similar to each other and learn from each other.  Kung Fu is about punching, trapping, and weapons.  Real fighting involves weapons.  The main thing is to punch, clinch, and use melee weapons.  Everyone knows this.

Now that I am reaching maturity, I know self defense is for children.  Aggression is wrong.  Nonviolence is the best self defense.  When you do no harm, no harm is done to you.  The only way to win anything or be a champion is by knowing action-reaction.

I used to think about Aryan Supremacy, Psychology, Nietzsvhe's philosophy and Judo alot.  But this is all poppycock.  No one is superior.  Being a wrestling or judo champion is just kid's stuff.  All the ideas of Europe of the 19th century were based on grandiosity.  Even psychology, which is based on Nietzsche's philosophy is wrong and based on not believing in the immortal soul.  Hitler was arrogant, Nietzsvhe thought he was better than God, Psychology is about weilding power over others, and wrestling and judo is useless.  People laugh at wrestling champions because it doesn't work and it doesn't make you better.  Nobody cares if you are the champion.  And belt rank started in judo as a measure of progress.  In kung fu, there are no belts.

The zen lifestyle is about living a simple life and being quiet.  Food, sex, and aggression is just the begining.  A good man wants peace, eats simply, and moderates sexuality.  And then you go up from there.  Enlightenment means the kundalini awakening.  

So I am learning to move on.  I like music and zen and nutrition and my art.  Karate is for kids, and although boxing is fun to watch, it is too exciting and infuriating.  I just want peace and to enter a different state of maturity.  

I know I must live a better life.  So I am moving on.  

Hell Mouth

I am interested in Latin culture.  There are many authors in Latin America that are translated into English.  Most famous of all were Castaneda and Ruiz.  There is western yoga like there is Eastern yoga.  Aztec Yoga is all about Sex and the Sacred.

Lust is not the most evil thing in life.  On the contrary, it is the best.  Love and Lust are two things, but you need both to be a good human being.  The light is love, and the flesh is lust.  So love is an emotion, and sex is just gratification of the body.

But as long as we are alive, we need to balance between love and lust.  You have a body, so you need to eat and sleep and bathe and all that.  And we have a spirit so we need love and emotions and wisdom and knowledge.

God is Love, and the Devil is Lust.  But don't pretend like you are not lusty.  We are animals.  Life begins at the root chakra with food, sex, and aggression.  And as you go up the spine, it ends with the crown chakra and enlightenment and Oneness.  So kundalini yoga is the real self realization.  It is becoming your full potential.

So when I see porn, I don't feel ashamed.  Every woman has sex for money.  By 15 or 16, women realize that their vagina is a commodity.  A woman can get something with her sexuality.  Nobody pays men for sex.  Even male strippers are just pretty boys doing a fantasy business.  So women have more value than men.

The aesthetics of porn is all about what we secretly value.  The main thing, no kidding, is the penis next to the woman's face.  These two things are the most beautiful things in the world.  And the ejaculation is called, 'the moneyshot' because that is what people pay to see.  The most ridiculous moneyshot is in the woman's mouth.

So sex is just about lust and expression of rage.  We are animals who think.  First thing is self defense, eating, and fucking.  If you can't do anything else, just sit around at home cooking and eating.  The root chakra is the animal part of the human being, but a human being can go beyond the animal kingdom.  That is why any human birth is fortunate.  We are better than dogs or monkeys or whatever.

I find the Latinas and Asians the most interesting.  Latin women are great at sex and very lusty.  Asian women are submissive and servile.  I am not a big fan of white and black and all that.

This post is not about porn or lust.  It is about what we see in porn.  There is an aesthetic to it.  And between porn and art is erotica.  Erotica is art about lust and sex.  

What I am trying to say is, lust is a part of life and you have to accept you are part beast before you move on to the higher realms.

Less is More

The weekend is approaching and I realize a new lesson every day.  I helped a friend do grocery shopping ai got a week's supply of groceries, and i got a few bucks in my pocket.  So I learn that you help people and they help you.  But if you stay at home philosophizing and scheming and plotting revenge, you are an impotent loser.  My nuclear family taught me wrong ideas and wrong values, and I had no one to compare to, so I thought I was one of them.

Less is more.  When you do the bare minimum, and are content with it, you get everything you need, and then you get free time and money to do whatever the hell you want.  Solomon observed this is in the bible.. Anythign beyond the bare minimum goes to someone else.  I have met a handful of friends who possess this wisdom and humility.  You do not get more stuff for doing more things.  The more you go, the less you know.  Just doing a simple life of a simple man is better than being president or being a CEO or being a rockstar.

I feel content with my life, and how I am living.  But I know if I want more women and guitars and food and more trips to the Halal restaurant, I need more money.  I am reluctant to get a real job, because I am one lazy motherfucker.  But I am starting to see what is real.  Money is power, and if I want power, I need the money.

Judo is power on a more physical level.  Work is power on a more societal level.  I have several skills i can use, including sport culture, art, music, and nutrition.  These are all aspects of shamanic culture.  In Mexcio, the healer is the leader too.  And the ideal leader is man-womanish.  White dudes laugh at the idea of an effiminate man woman.  But Latinos understand the concept of the androgyn male.  Androgyny makes you more sexy and more complete.  I notice all the rockstars from past to present were androygnous.  Beginnig Elvis, Chuck Berry, Paul McCartney, Jim Morisson, Freddie Mercury, down to all the modern guys.  Balance between masuclinity and feminity does not make you a freak, it makes you powerful because harmony is power.  Light contains 7 colors that add up to white.  When you add colors on paper, it adds up to black.  So I work with digital cartoons not solid medium.  

So I am content but willing to do more to get more.  I met many wounded warriors, many good losers, many humble champions, and many talented failures.  There are also arrogant conceited winners and rich men who think they are rick because they are better.  But there are many factors in who wins and who loses.

So if I want to live and die in peace, I must get on my bike and ride.

Show and Tell

 I think I would take this fine morning to show off one of my artworks.  In recent months, I stopped drawing and sketching new artworks and just began recoloring old line art in new ways.  I need a new scanner.  But until that time, I will make do with what I have.  I see art as being more lucrative than rock n roll music in this cultural mileu.  Nobody listens to rock n roll anymore.  It is a historic genre that died out in the late 1970s.  I guess folks today aint got the same soul.

So here is my artwork of the day.

This is an old artwork I recolored and added new typography to.  Obviously, boxing is a retarded sport for people who want to pugilize each other.  It is a legal, socially sanctioned way for alpha males to express rage and not go to the house of detention.  I find it oddly fascinating and yet I don't like it.

This design is based on a quick sketch I did on a drawing pad, scanned into the computer, and digitally colored in Photoshop.  Since I have not mastered digital rendering techniques yet, there is no cel-shading yet, so the colors are saturated with no sense of light and dark.  So the art is very bright and pure and makes you happy.  It is like an elevated children's art.

I visit the subject of pugilism a lot because it is ridiculous and yet makes me happy.  I know the features of this boxer are distorted, but smart people don't do boxing.  They get jobs.  The colors are simple, the lines are thick and done over with a marker, and the typography is just beginner level.  But I constantly aim to improve my skills.

So I should switch my focus of this blog from crazy political, racial ideas and my theories about combat sports and the history of rock n roll music and get back to promoting my art career.  I have written volumes on this blog and have given away books of ideas.  If I was smart, I would be more sneaky.  But I do not wish to give away my position.  I am incognito.

So look out for more art from me.

Action Reaction

Every day, I learn new things.  Life is not static.  It is not about one thing and one thing only.  I observe and reflect and grow.  I do not stop learning.  I helped a friend do grocery shopping and he helped me back by hooking me up with some food.  So I learned that Kano's axioms are right.

Mutual Welfare and Benefit is the premise of society.  I help you and you help me back.  And if I hurt you, you have a right to hurt me.  But if I do nothing for nobody, nobody helps me.  This is called equity.  The universe was founded on equity.  

I have plans for the future.  I want more jobs in the graphic design field, I want to publish more books on nutrition, and I plan on writing a comic book or illustrated book for children.  But these things do not happen easy.  You must dream up an idea, plan it, do prelimary sketches, and accomplish the goal by a series of acts.  I have the tools to do it.  But I must get active.  And the more I do, the more I get.

So I must put behind me the past of music and combat sports and all the girls I wish I had dated in high school and all that jazz.  Porno and MMA is bad entertainment.  I stayed childlike for too long.  One brother helped me learn judo.  The other is helping me learn to grind a dayjob.  Judo is survival on a more primitive level, work is survival on a more sophisticated level.

So Maslow was right.  You go from low to high.  Music is based on the bass.  Health is based on nutrition.  All religious knowledge is rooted in the bible.  You start at the base and you work up to the noble.  But I took a long time to learn.

So my future is in graphic design and nutrition books and I plan on learning cartooning and storyboarding and ultimately creating digital comics for young people.  Kids between the age of 15 and 30 are punks exploring themselves.  You must get them when they are young.  By age 30 or 35, you are spent like an arrow.  And then life is only slowly dying.  A Hindu plans his life according to the ideal lifespan.  In Hindu philosophy a man should live 100 years.  But this is just an ideal.  Some live 80, some live 60, some die in youth.  Some die in their teenage years, which is a tragedy.  I do not need longevity.  I simply want to live and die in peace.

So I will do what I must do before I am done.

Blind Faith

 Your lifestyle is your religion.  It is not what you say in church one day a week or what you believe is true or how much money is in your bank account.  That doesn't matter.  There are different types of Buddhism according to your personality.

Theravada is about retreating to the monestary, being vegan, celibate, living off of alms, not fighting and attaining nirvana for yourself.  Mahayana is based on the premise of attaining kensho, teaching dharma for all your years, and then dying and finding bliss.

There are different schools of Buddhism.  Tibetan Buddhism is about meditating until you find spiritual powers and can do great things.  There is also Zen Buddhism where your lifestyle is your religion.  People in Japan do not go to church or even visit monks or priests.  They are not religious people.  Their life is their offering.  The way you eat, sleep, shit, make love, fight, do art, do music, cook a meal, sing a song, even the porno is influenced by their beliefs.

The reason America is so miserable is because they abandon faith, because if you are religious you can't fuck and fight and play your guitar and make sweet love to a woman.  But this comes from a guilty conscience.  And it comes from wrong science undermining faith.  All the ideas of the 19th century were wrong, and technology ruined our lives.  

Chuck Berry was a shrewd man who executed a strategy to manipulate the youth market.  With the advent of farm technology, you did not need to work the farm during the summer and a 15 year old boy could work a day job and spend his hard earned money on his girlfriend, comic books, and rock albums.  So Chuck Berry saw an opportunity to sell black music to white kids with the loot.  He was not evil, he was just shrewd.  But I dig his sound.

So you can reconcile religion and having a good time.  It turns out, religious people have the most fun, because they have the most passion and most desire.  They are great lovers, they will fight if they have to, their music is better than Eric Clapton on his best day, and some food at the church is not too shabby.

So everything is its opposite in Tao.  The obvious thing is not true.  The counterintuitive is true.  Soft men are hard, hard men are punks.  Softness is power, that is where Judo and Jujutsu comes from.  Yielding is strength.

So I have no declared religion.  I read the Tao Te Ching and the Baghavad Gita and it helped me master the concepts of msyticism.  When you master your mind, you become more efficient than a computer.  But ultimately, all we do amounts to nothing, because mortal men are day flies.  Just have fun while you can and be humble.  There are immortals in the bible, inlcuding Enoch the Wise, Elijah the Prophet, and Ezra became Ezrae-el.  So there are two immortals and one transcendent immortal in the bible.  

I know prophets are always martyred.  They martyred Bob Marley.  But the life of an ectastic healer is better than the life of Peter North or Bill Gates.  One gets to blast women's faces and the other has Machivellian schemes to take over the world.  I admire Peter North more than I admire Bill Gates.

So the beat goes on and I continue.  There is no meaning to life, we simply live to keep living.  So I keep living and keep surviving.  And by not being ambitious, I accomplish a lot of things and I just give it away because I don't care about money.  The best people I met in my life did not like money.  They just liked a peaceful lifestyle.  I met a vetrinarian who said, "Money cannot buy happiness"  It's just worldly value.  Health is worth more.  So is integrity.

So I will just keep doing what I do, and be happy with it.